Lots of scouting thoughts feeling my mind these days. One of the major questions was: "What is the Scouts Promise and Law means to you in life?" Am I living my life based on the oath I swore upon when I first became a scout?

Scout Promise:
On my honour, I promise that I will do my best
To do my duty to God
And the Republic of Singapore
To help other people
And to keep the Scout Law

Scout Law:
1) A Scout is to be trusted.
2) A Scout is loyal.
3) A Scout makes friends, establishes and maintains harmonious relations.
4) A Scout is disciplined and considerate.
5) A Scout has courage in all difficulties.

Basically, the Scout Promise and Law, in my own definition... is the way of scouting life as you live your life each day.

What's honour without pride? Nowadays, people do not have pride nor honour when handling life matters as well as making decisions. They tend to push the blame around or some simply care less about how others feel. What's the point of living a life without honour in your life?

The greatest satisfaction that I can think of currently, for me... is to do my best in as many things that I can, within my abilities that God gave me. The abilities to carry out his Will on Earth as it is in Heaven... Thus, placing God in the centre of your life, never goes wrong as he is the lamp-post or the guiding light.

What keeps volunteers from coming back time and again to help other people? Is it because there is no life in them, thus they volunteer? Is it because of monetary gains? What are the reasons? To help other people, especially people with special needs, is a privilege in life. A chance to be human and compassionate. Time passes by so quickly everyday as people are rushing here and there... however, not realising that there are people around us that God created, for us to take notice of and assist them.

The Scout Law generally sums up the areas in life that a person should have. Trust, loyalty, friendship, relationships, disciplined, considerate and courage... the fundamentals of being a Singaporean Scout, I guess. Generally, these are the things that is essential in life when you go about each and every day.

I tried to help you, offering you two sides of my shoulders to choose. Here's a selection fro you: the left or the right shoulder to lean on when you're upset and unhappy, when you need comfort and warmth... Time's up? What's your take?... You chose to gave both up. I get the meaning maybe. I don't know. I'm making myself sounding like a fool at times. It's silly to fall in love with such a childish mentality of mine.

Sometimes, in life, trying to help someone... doesn't always meant that the person will feel that he or she is being helped at all. In fact, at times, it can be kinda annoying and irritating. I guess that's how the other part of the beautiful twin felt. It's weird to think of her at times... I almost forgot how she is like anymore...

Helping that little turtle is never a troublesome job... well, like she said, coz' you're my buddy and you care for me. I guess there's no escaping to that phrase. Buddies for life?! I pray it will be lasting till death do us... haha part.

OK now here's the interesting part of me:
Rule #1: When you're upset or unhappy, unless you're open-minded and willing to listen to my illogical thinking, I'll 100% flop when I try to cheer you up... chances are that you'll feel more angry and upset for the idiocracy that I have.

Other rules to come later on...

It's been a tiring yet fun two days of working two different types of jobs. One of which is a face-to-face contact with customers while the other is via a phone system. I do have to agree with a senior at the latter workplace that customers tend to unleash their fury more when they are 'virtual' as compared to 'physical'.

There was a first time for everything, this includes getting a tip for $10. It's a lot to me, even though in other industry it means normal. Not because of the amount only, but it shows that at least someone or a family among so many that I have served, appreciate for the effort and service provided. And most interesting of all, I always hoped to meet Japanese ladies face to face. I've got that chance, they're awesome people. Super friendly and kawaii in their own ways. So love to service them as well, kept hearing them arigato-ing me. Haha. Awesome day! There are more fun customers, however too much elaboration would bore those reading (including myself sometimes).

Returned back to my attachment place. It felt kinda odd-ward at first. I thought I forgot most of the items and procedures, thus it was a slow start. However as more calls came in, confidence and memory returned.

'Family' feeling in the working environment is very important to me. So is it in scouting... reason being that I do not like to get involve in political matters whereby back-stabbing and bad-mouthing occurs. Who likes it anyway? But people still do it. I dislike many things at workplaces, whereby you sincerely wanted to clear your doubts and you got a fished-up looking supervisor that answers you back like you offended it. Omg... it's sh*t.

Anyway I've got a load of my shoulder... cleared my first trouble that I mentioned in the earlier entries. 1. Love... settled. Whether she got the message or she didn't get the message, it's so blur blur. Whatever it is, it's off my shoulder and I'm moving on to clear the others bit by bit. I need a carefree life, with lots of love around... but not on me... Just among people.

Just watched The Hottie and the Nottie. Paris Hilton is hot... no longer skinny and bony but slim. The other lady (I didn't get her name), she's cute... at the ending. But she do have that low voice... haha. Ultimately, the show proves a point too. People do change. Look at those girls during secondary school, whereby they are so quiet and dull-looking... what happened to them after secondary life? Haha no comments, up to one's perceptions. I just believe that people change and with advance medical facilities, looks can change too. But character and attitude changes hard. Thus, the meaning of inner beauty comes about.

Sins of the past will be cleanse eventually, by the blood of the Lamb. Forgiveness against burden of hate. Love against hate. Hating someone is kinda tiring and difficult. Eventually, the person who suffers from all the fatigue is you. However, loving a person is easy, those without ulterior motives, and 'healthy' I guess.

2 more months to DPCC 2008! Let's do it team!

Lastly, Congrats to Uncle John Ting for winning the Singapore Coffee Championship! Woohoo, another success story for the family. I would love to try your coffee someday.

I'll work hard towards being a success story for the family too. My inspiration Uncle Desmond and Uncle John. My motivation... the Kiddies. My pillars ... God and Mom!! My aim... to be a 24/7 bum! haha.

Life's Good... that's what I'm trying to convince myself each day as I wake up. Well, some days are good, some are super nasty. It just feels like you woke up on the wrong side of the bed and all things started to go wrong.

Spoke to Hippo just now... I guess we were like trashing out the amount of sh*t we got to clean up in life. For her, it's really physical sh*t, for me, it's just some personal sh*t. Things that I ranked to let off my burden were:

1. Love
2. Scouts over-due paperwork
3. Studies
4. Work

Family and friends, I'm cool with them. There are nothing wrong, in fact, they are the reason why I'm continuing to live each day. Of coz, we are the reason because of the Father.

It's always about the future eh? Planning what to do the next day or the next week or ten years down the road... I used to believe that I should plan and follow it strictly... however, I gave it up. It's not because there was no discipline, it's because it's unpredictable. Rather than to expect and be disappointed, why not wait for God's decision and follow it.

Whenever you watched a show, you would expect yourself to be the main character that seems all too goody. However, while watching Bull Fighting, ideally Shen Ruo He seems like the kinda of guy I would like to be... in reality, I guess I can only be at least Zi Cong when it comes to love. There isn't any reciprocal love when it comes to someone close I guess. No underlying meaning to this, however... it just seems love seems so hard to come by.

Melody was telling me about waiting for a sign and that time will reveal the truth.... Time is a luxury... Sometimes 24 hrs a day, doesn't seem enough for me. Haha, I'm a chiong-ing fishy.

Anyway Euodia, what's with your friendster pictures with the word 'Fish'? Surprise right, that I saw your friendster pictures... haha

I wanna go the beach someday to just relax and enjoy the night breeze. And to do a shout-out. Anyone?

Now I'm back to watching Bullfighting again... haha, I just love to watch shows with basketball involved. Reminds me of MVP Qing Ren... Woohoo. Anyway since I am so bored, there isn't much for me to do except to do lots of work and watch a couple of drama series... All work and no play or anime or drama series, makes Marlin a dull fish, right?

School's been boring, there isn't much to do these days yet. However, I do feel that this semester is critical enough for me, if there is any chance for me to proceed to the university of my choice or at least related to my course of study. If not, let's just wait and see what God has installed for me in a couple of years time.

Anyway before we get too emotional, suicide partner. It's good to know you are corresponding via blogging. At least it keeps your blog regularly updated right? Haha thank me thank me. Yeap, anyway how was the band?

Fan clubs are getting kinda popular nowadays, right Euodia? Haha, just teasing... anyway if that guy still persist, Aeti and I will go find him and trash him... haha kidding, Aeti, I brought you into the picture eh. haha, the more, the merrier. Ok ok just jokes, nothing serious here.

Talking about the girl I like... hmmm now I do wonder, why do I like her? Haha it's a weird question as ... if you ask someone why you like that person, he or she can name you a 1000 and 1 items (plus repeated stuffs) about that person. For me, I just find her cute. Haha, hey hey I do admit I like cute girls, however!!! attitude still plays a major part. I wouldn't want to be with a girl that has no attitude or attitude beyond my recognition. It's as if I have a lot of choices to choose from eh... haha

But that girl, I sense that she is special. However, there doesn't seem to be any connection going on recently. Maybe I'm thinking too much or forcing too much. If there is a choice, I would suppress my feelings. I wouldn't even try to think of one possibility to date her or woo her. Maybe I should just do that... it's better than to try so hard and it doesn't work out anyway. Talking to her at times, I do not know whether I should be pissed with her responses or like her because she is answering. Damn it.

Yawn... I'm lacking sleep again. Been feeling sleepy during lessons and lectures, especially a double combo for every tuesday. I love those teachers, however... sometimes I can't connect to what they are teaching. I seem to be disconnected from the World at times, maybe I should check my 'router' or 'lan cable'... haha cold jokes.

Sometimes, in life, you need smiles from people. People that you feel will look super good-looking when they smile. They will surely brighten your day. Not only in the work place (Shanny, don't anyhow think!), but in school as well.

Well, I seem to be noticing my environment (especially people) around me very often these days. It was until Ben told me that I am looking too much at girls, that I realised, it wasn't just the girls (not boys totally, I'm straight!!) but the environment. It's like admiring God's creations... (haha freak man, I got a feeling that some people will say it's excuses). Whatever it is, either I am paranoid or I'm just too free to look around.

Anyway anyone reading manga for Claymore?

Completed the episodes for Devil besides you... I can't believe it! I actually shed two drops of tears within episode 19 and 20 of the drama. I guess it just reminds me of a lot of stuff. Love... such a wonderful creation by God. A powerful tool that drives emotional crazy. Makes me wonder what are the boundaries in life when it comes to loving someone...

Read about the youngster who loved a married woman so much that he is willing to do anything for her, even to kill her husband... Is that one of the boundaries for blindly loving someone?

To kill love, what would most people do? For me, I would just numb myself... through work, through other methods that allow me to forget about that feeling. It does take a long time however, killing one's love depends on the person itself. Whether to take the step forward to forget or to remain at the position to suffer. Life's about moving on, ain't it?

Time management has been ever more critical for me this semester, especially when holding two part-time jobs. It's tough and senseless at times when I think about it... why should I work so hard when others can slack at home and enjoy their life now? Isn't that what I normally tell others too?

I think that before I drive myself crazy, I have to find a solution fast. As a student, studies after all is the secondary priority after friends and my personal life. Working is just an ad-hoc basis to pass my time. Moreover, not forgetting my girlfriend Scou Ting... Taxing it may seem, however, I wonder how long can I last for this...

My suicide partner mentioned to me today about treating girls the same... I do sometimes wonder how do I treat girls? I never find myself gentlemanly as I simply do not care much less. Am I such a good guy imagine in front of these girls... am I just bluffing them? I wonder... Makes me think that I am so soft... Nah! No way, I am tough and will be tougher... I shall not crumble under pressure or love, I shall stay strong!

Well, an announcement to make... look out for the latest upcoming actress named Ms Liu YiFei... some of you may guess where she is from or acting in which movie. She's such a cutey that I forgot about the Forbidden Kingdom and focus on her during the entire show... Haha makes me look like a boy desperately in love!! Woo... Check her out dudes.

Anyway lots of love is going around these days, which is a good thing as the World is seriously lacking in it. Three cheers for love... Three cheers for those who are in love... Three cheers for those who are madly in love... And Three cheers for those who are in a happy relationship... :)

Week one has passed... how has it been for those who started school again?

I was bathing just a while ago and a random thought struck my mind. I thought, if I were to die within the day... where would the places I should go? One of which was definitely my mom's grave. The others that appeared was the Scout Den, the Fishy home, the Citi home, my own home (although my dad always complain that I'm treating my home like a hotel these days).. and still thinking for other places.

Who I would like to spend my time with for the last few moments? Apparently, no one... I would like to have a quiet time alone, reflecting on the past few years since I was born till present day. I would be thinking what have I done right for the society or maybe what mistakes I have been or had made in the past.

You kiddies know something? What actually made you stay in scouting for so long? Is it the CCA points? Is it for fun? Why scouts?

I was chatting with Ben, the other day. He is a buddy in my Poly life. A karate fighter with a burning passion to excel in that area as well as to do service for his federation. I asked him, why does he train so hard and why does he continue to go back to his club to do service? His reason and mindset is quite similar to mine.

Firstly, the environment is there. The people that we knew, the common identity... the sense of belonging and stuff...

Secondly, the leaders/ trainer(s). Well, would you go back to service a club or unit if the leaders or seniors treats you like sh*t? Or would you go back to help out the leaders or seniors that you feel is worthy of your time and effort?

Well, it may seem naive at times... however like what Jedi said: "For the crew/ unit"... we sacrifice our blood and sweat to educate.

I've so many many things to do ... My reports for school and scouts... My bike practical that I hardly begin... My car practical that I have yet to apply for... My school tutorials that I do not know how to begin... My life seems to be going at a fine pace, however down the road, there maybe hurdles and strange stuff happening... who knows?

Haha, I wonder who will be my next friend in line to get marry? It's so exciting to the point that it is like a slap to my face... reason being that I'm reaching that age soon too. It's just a matter of time. It used to be such a far-fetched idea in the past, however now... it seems so real. Well, whoever is going to get married first... better invite me too!! haha... kidding... I don't want to be an uninvited guest!!

And to my little cousin... thanks for the new nickname eh... The Eventual Replier...

There she was, sitting with her family, eating her fish and chips and other dishes. I thought she looked familiar somehow or another. However I can't seem to place her in my memories. Until she confirm with me, who I am... I realised she was the lady that lived beside me since young. Sounds like a bed-time story... not really.

I never expected her to remember me. I was a super duper naughty punk and bum in those days. She changed a lot... so does her family members. I thought that I would never liked her as her looks always caused me to fear. Today, I sensed sincerity from her. I'm glad that things changed.

Well, giving up on someone seems like an easy thing to do. I tried to gave up many many things in life. Some came back to haunt me, while others just go away. I never believed in giving up on my friends, especially those I hold dear in my heart. Mei was right to called me stupid and idiot for doing so, however, somehow or another, I felt that she is a girl that shouldn't be given up upon. I wish I know what went wrong, however, I guess that day will not be any sooner.

Suicide partner, it wasn't on purpose for putting up that message. It's just a random thought at that point of time. Well, I may not understand what you need in life. Only you do and you can decide what you need. What I can do as a friend is to stand by your side and lend you that shoulder you need. I can't confirm that the shoulder will be comfortable a not, however I'll try to. :) Ain't that sweet of me.... haha. Smile girl.

Work has been tough, especially the service line. As customers become more demanding in their 'rights', they then to neglect their sense of human-natured. On the other hand, as customer service staff become too hack-care with their job, they will be the ones who tarnish the image of the other staffs, who are putting the extra effort and miles to make some one's day.

I just need to see more smiles these days. A warm smile from several people. That may be the life-line that will keep me going from day to day. One of them is that female monkey of mine in my life. That adorable yet irritating (super, I mean that, haha)... And maybe that sunshine girl also. Just that sunshine smile to clear the bad weather... I guess.

How to be a White Stag?

When I first started out as a tenderfoot... I wondered why was it called White Stag. Why can't it be something more stylish and powerful? Not many people do really go about and understand why the unit name is chosen this way and not that.

White as for purity. The purity of the soul as well as the things we do. As Stags, we move about in the fields, with nothing to fear and nothing to be ashamed of. We go as one and leave no one behind.

Stags are honourable creatures. They are a family and they stick together. Irregardless of race, language, or religion... White Stag is a family.

I used to envy those 'high-high' schools that had lots of achievement and awards. I aimed to be like them, however as time goes by... I realised, it isn't our culture at all. Pursuing awards and fame is a personal thing in White Stag, but never a troop thingy. We do not enforce nor push Stags to go about doing things... we only educate and encourage the Stags to go for things they believe in. Just like the slogan I lived by during my school days, 'We believe we can achieve". I believed and I achieved. Nothing is impossible, as what Missy said: 'I M Possible'.

What's worse than failing a test? To lose your own self into delusion, or to lose a minor battle that will eventually be a stepping stone that will change your life forever? I asked him just now, 'What is your ambition in life?'. He replied, 'To be a good and useful citizen that will contribute to the society.' I know it's kinda text-book answer, but I'm glad that he is moving that direction.

What is my goal as a leader? To train and guide young ones like him to be a better person each day. To allow him to use his skills to guide and teach others, just like how the Scout Promise and Law states. Apart from all his mistakes, I pray that one day, he will understand my meaning of life... isn't all about just a report.

To enjoy life isn't so difficult... it's how you decide to do it. Right, Huda?

To see me botak isn't so difficult, you just got to wait for another year. Right, Euodia?

To need me to accompany you whenever you are bored, it's just a sms away. Right, Stefy?

To go out on a date to relax and let loose, it's just time and place. Right, suicide partner?

To endure the pain of loneliness and face reality, it's just courage. Right, Mel?

To move forward amidst all the trouble you are facing in running the events, it's just a matter of management and endurance. Right, Hippo?

To go after a girl that you love and yet doesn't want to admit it, is that it... Bear?

To enjoy your dance like never before, it doesn't really matter what others say. Right, Macaw?

To carry on living your life happily, yet dis-connecting with your friends. Is that too much to ask, Wan Ting?

To live blindly, believe blindly, love blindly, study blindly, fight blindly... is that right, Marlin? Maybe I'm such an idiot at times too.

Whatever it is, friends out there... if you need me, I'll try my best to be there. For You.

Sometimes in life, you just need that break and go out with someone, that you are comfortable with and slack, laugh out loud (LOL) and really let loose. I did that just an hour ago. Well, she is a little special... and super duper irritating also. Imagine going out after 10pm and standing beside her, while she was laughing like a mad woman non-stop.

I was like, someone please call the mental hospital !!

Ain't it great to have someone to go out with, just like that? However, each have our own personal life as well as love ones to spend with. So, at times, just catching up a bit here and there is enough and satisfying. Maybe till I find a partner that is willing to chiong with me wherever I go. Maybe that's the time, when I will mellow down.

Feeling sick time and again... I've got that feeling that either I ate too much or I ate the wrong food. Feeling kinda queasy now... maybe I have a child!! That's why she claim she heard a baby crying just now. Haha ok, that's lame.

Sometimes, I find that if life is free... free from worries, stress, law ... yeah law. I was talking to Tingz and partly cursing for having to study another law subject again for this semester... I wonder who created additional law. Why do I say additional law? That's because, God create the first 10 laws. Follow up by humans who mixed and match and created all other sorts of law.

I was asking her, 'Why do people create law?'. Is it simply to keep order in the society or is it making life more restricted and bound? I do agree that humans need law to be govern. They are creatures that will become loose and crazy if there is lawlessness around. However, too much law in the memory, will also drive people crazy.

I never understand what's wrong with the society. People argue that it's a new age era... while others feel that tradition is dying. The generation is getting smarter but morally decline. One reason why I am kinda picky when donating money for kids doing flag day is, simply, that I felt that those who put in the effort by going around to ask with a smile on their face, should deserve the attention of the doner. Instead of those who sat at one corner, with the tin sticking out of his/ her hand, waiting for people to donate. These are the people who do not take into consideration and reflecting why they are doing this in the first place (whether it is by force or volunteerism).

Life is ain't fair. If I have to stop myself from liking her any further, I will do so. I will force myself even if it hurts, before it hurts even further. I can't let this drag on anymore.

I love you...
You love me...
We are happy family...
With a great big hug and a kiss from me to you...
Won't you say you love me too...

Ain't this a childhood song that all the kids love to listen and sing-a-long? or..

Jesus, love me... Yes, I do
For the Bible tells me so...
Little ones that He belong...
They are weak but He is strong...
Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me... for the Bible tells me so.

Another childhood song, right Aeti?

So Hillsongs, with Aeti, Waiman... Euodia?? Wan Ting?? Who else wanna come along?

Love... Am I in love with the wrong girl again?

Some people give love, but nothing is return. A one-sided love that is only seen by a third party point of view. Blinded by the person who loves and ignorance for the person getting the love. How weird.

School term starting in a couple of hours. Time to prioritize my life again. It's just an endless process of deciding what is good for me and what isn't. However, knowing myself, whatever comes along, I'll just take and go. I don't weigh my options much when it comes to myself, however, when it comes to a relationship, a long term relationship, it does takes a whole lot of brain-power to weigh every single option and positiveness. Why?

I've let too many chances slip by... as the girl waits for me. Or for the sake of another, I'll let it go till I found out that actually, I do like her a lot. And when I confess, it will be too late for anything. Not once, not twice but many a times. Why am I so silly?

I'll never get to grasp the meaning and feeling of loving someone at this point of time. Until, someone actually open my eyes to see how love should be like.

For brothers or for love with another. Brothers first. That's my decision.

I've got a Paul-ine, Dickphane, Nicky and Azrina... whose next?

Currently watching the drama series of Devil beside me... what initially catch my eye of that show was because of the main actor, who also acted in Bull Fighting that Melody recommended me to watch.

Well, I was thinking, have I ever feel in love even if the girl I love and I are just strolling down a pathway quietly? Both of us enjoying each other's company as well as absorbing the ambiance of the surrounding. How does it feel? Excited, anxious, words that can't describe it?

Have you ever get that feeling when you are down and low during the day, you get to see a girl that can make you smile? A lady seems like a more approriate word. A lady that you do not know and do not speak to at all. A lady that happens to walk pass each time when you look up from your work and a smile will appear on your face. It's not love nor crush. Just a simple way to keep you smiling for that moment.

Have you feel so comfortable talking to a lady that you can laugh with all day long? Simple words and jokes that keeps you laughing on and on? A lady that sits besides you and keep you entertain during work? Ain't she a great person? A sister to look up to , a model to respect in having the positive attitude in working?

Ain't life made simple when you look at things positively? Ain't life more exciting and enjoyable when you know that you're protected and loved by God, even if no one on Earth does that to you? Ain't life more blissful when you made someone's day happier? Using each day of my life to assist someone, to make at least one person's day happier... is that a goal?

A relationship that never started in the first place, will have no ending in the end. A whirl of thoughts that keeps you believeing that the girl is someone you truly should be with, and sometimes, when you place too much emotional thoughts into it. And when things do not turn out the way it should be... you'll end up more disappointed, upset, angry and sometimes dumb. I empathize you, however, life isn't made fair. It takes two hands to clap to make a sound, like how it takes two consenting party to love each other to establish a relationship.

Ain't it sweet to always seem happy start-up and happy ending? However, why do I normally see happy start-up and poor endings? Doesn't the word "happily ever after" apply anymore? Is the Devil really beside me that allow me to make poor decisions? Or am I just doing the Devil's work at the end of the day? I wonder...

With movies and cartoons and many other media stories, at times, the Devil seems to be a more tempting offer as compared to God. However, no worries, God is righteousness and holiness. Fighting the Devil in me is never an easy thing, however with God by my side, there isn't anything to fear. Are I right?

Haha, am I just another silly boy that you'll see me as again? Is that so, girl?

Hey hey hey.... let's rock the house... The house of the Father, of cos'.

There're so many exciting things going on in Singapore itself with the upcoming Planetshaker's concert at the Max Pavillion on the 10th and 11th of April 2008. Woah hoo!!

Another upcoming hot, super hot, favorite is... (drum roll please!!) Hillsongs United Concert on the 24th of May 2008 at The Rock, Suntec City. Here's a sneak peek at what's Hillsongs United is all about.



Who says Church is just another boring event?! Here we go... a new generation, a generation of hope, love and most importantly... Jesus.

Well, I hope she is free on that day to go for the concert again. I'll just have to pray hard again. And pray that she will go for that concert.

Everytime after listening to Hillsongs, it just gives me that sense of ease that the World isn't meant to be how it is now. Paradise and the promise land seems so distant at times. I'm day/night-dreaming again I guess.

Horoscopes. Tarot Cards. Fortune Telling. and many many more types of description of people who have the same liking or falls within the same category.

My sista sent me an e-mail about this website called the Visual DNA. I thought, since I'm so bored, why not give it a try to see how it goes. Well here goes for my description:

Mood: Easy Rider
Fun: Conqueror
Habits: Junkie Monkey
Love: Love Bug

Wanna know what is the underlying meaning behind it? Just click and try it!!

If you're the same kind as me, welcome my friend.
If not, get lost... haha just kidding. It's just something to pass your time when you are bored.

Great Teacher Marlin (GTM)... how do I be that? or maybe Great Scouter Marlin (GSM). Anyone wants to be my student?

A lady just freaked me out just an hour ago, as I was walking home. She was looking at my direction and it seems like she was speaking to me. So I pulled the earphones from my ears and tried to hear what she was trying to say. I thought she was lost or something. However, what spooked me was that she was asking me if I believe in Jesus. I was like, what the ....

She looked kinda distorted and seriously looks like she need a week of rest and sleep. Dark sunken eyes with depressing expression... Oh man. I wonder what she was up to, actually.

Anyway, lots of comments lately. And lots of shit coming one after another. If work is ain't enough, my girlfriend Scou Ting is another problem. What in the blue hell is wrong with parents these days? Blardy hell. Thinking you're such a smart-ass that when you teach something, you expect your son to be a superman? Now, that makes me wonder why is your son like this in the first place. Freaking hell man.

Argh. Some people in this pitiful World, just think that they are so freaking great. Come on, stop bluffing yourself and wake up from your blardy idea. Do you need a slap from me to wake you up? If you do, let me know... I will not hesitate to do so, especially with old arrogant man. I am beginning to have lesser tolerant for nonsense these days. Trying hard to keep my cool, however, some arse is just going to be the one spoiling my day. Thanks man.

I wonder sometimes, how do parents ensure their kid is well discipline and morally upright in the society? How do they control their kid without causing them to rebel too much yet not harming their future to be too dependent on them? I do wonder how my kids will grow up if I ever have any.

Well, in the matters of winning and losing in a battler. A great answer is the process... I do agree. I have to say that's one answer that is tactfully right. However, of cos', all these are personal opinions. Pray that you get well soon :).

Speaking to a junior earlier about love. Then I thought of what Crab talked to me about love too. Haha sounds gay, but no intention... anyway, he asked, "What do you seek love now? What is the point?" I asked her the same question, and she replied she didn't know. I understand that confusion when you get stuck in between of loving and not loving that person. Whether to move forward to establish a boy-girl relationship or just remain as friends. It's a difficult decision. I understand.

Love Love Love Love Love Love... Love Love Love... makes the World go round... (x2). Sounds familiar? It's power puff girls song. Wahaha childish.

Fine, if I'm not going to be child-like or any sort of interesting to people, I will just be another boring person and what my female cousin says as a stern looking nerd. Yeap, she said that to me... breaks my heart into pieces. Anyway she ain't no better. Haha just kidding dear, you're fine coz' you're my cousin. So if I'm good looking, so are you. Right?

Ok, now... I need suggestions from all the readers... sounds like there are many in the first place. Haha. I need to know how to guide, teach, force them to learn or whatever method there is, to instill moral values and courtesy into younger kids, these days? Time to learn to be more brotherly and fatherly at the same time. Or else, Scou Ting is going to give me hell next time.

Happy Birthday to Turtle today... (applause!!) (drum roll...) (whistle!!) (cough cough... haha)

Ever heard of the phrase, "What goes around, comes around"? After a 'severe' hammer to my temper, my instinct of fighting back was triggered. Even a tame animal will have its instincts return when being pushed too far.

Ocean did reminded me something about working in the customer service line. It's ain't easy as not everyone is kind in this World. Some idiots are just meant to make life difficult for people. They know their rights, however they do not know their limit to matters. Only money matters to them, more than anything else. Perhaps, more than their lives. I know I can't release any information about customers any where any how... however, it's really an ugly side of humans to 'see' when they happen to answer the phone to vent their anger just because of money.

I can understand that in today's World, some people feel that money is everything. Money makes the World go round and round, till the World starts to tear apart from each other. One thing for sure, God created all things, even money. Thus God gave humans meaning to life through monetary means and not give monetary means meaning to human lives. Simply saying that, money doesn't run the human lives. It's the humans that allow money to run and we benefit from it.

To think that people has been complaining about customer service in Singapore or any other companies are bad and lousy when they encounter a minor issue, ain't that a like childish to begin with? I agree that customers are paying for my pay and salary, however I do not agree that customers are always right. Whoever that created that slogan, should really ought to be shot first.

On the other hand, to say that customer service in Singapore is satisfactory is also another difficult thing to say. At times when I see servers not being happy about their job that they are in, it really affects the customers themselves. Imagine going into a fast-food restaurant to buy a meal as you are feeling happy to eat that meal. While queueing up, the server is being rude and displaying that 'hack-care' attitude, it just spoils mood. I wonder why do they chose that job in the first place, if they are not happy about it...

Well, can't wait to get back to the fishy place again to cook and serve customers that are appreciative. Yet can't bear to leave some of the friends that I made in the attachment. I've got to say, maybe there will be less trouble and administrative problems for my supervisor when I leave. Too much work and shitty stuff to clean up these days, especially those left by other people. Hopefully, I'll try my best to make things right.

Anyway, it's just 2 more days to go for Turtle's birthday... I kinda feel sad for myself. For the past 2 years, I didn't really spend her birthday with her. It sucks actually to think of it. I guess this year is going to be the same as well. Well... I'll think of something to make it up. Maybe an outing? a movie? a dinner? ...

Tomorrow will be a better day, I pray it will be. Chances are, when I see the work piling up day after day, it ain't going to be better. I've been trying to keep a positive mindset that I'll try to do my best for the customers. However, I guess there's a limit to everything

Auntie Florence was complaining that I didn't dare to take risk when it involves making decisions. Well, I got to agree on that. I do not dare to take risk when it doesn't belongs to me. I never like the idea of risking other people properties. More like, I didn't like the idea of using someone else stuff. My uncle used to tell me to go into banking and financial services and sectors to make use of people money to grow and earn from there. I guess, it was never my type to do so. Risking other people properties, just gives me the additional pressure to do better and be more careful with my decisions. Unlike using my own stuff, I am more lenient and willing to let go.

Well, all in all... after saying so much, if anyone understand... I would be surprise anyway. Not many people can read me. Except for a few who guesses correctly, most of the time.

Well, Good night and Good bye.

I've happened to notice this slogan when I was watching World Wrestling Entertainment (WWE) just an hour ago. Yeah I know, the word 'WWE' doesn't seems to exist in most people lives anymore. It used to be World Wrestling Federation (WWF), however there were issues with the name, thus they changed it. Anyway, looking at the Nature Boy, The Game, the Heart-Breaker Kid and The Big Show, does bring back memories of other famous wrestlers such as Hugh Hogan, Bert Hart and others... sounds alien to you? Maybe it belongs to the older generation as all these wrestlers existed since I was in primary school. That's way back...


Ok, back to the slogan...

The slogan was: "Emotions - Logic = Faith". Ain't that cool? When I saw this, I thought, faith requires a lot of strength to believe the unbelievable. Seriously, when all logical thinking fails to show results, faith does. Logical thinking is science. To think about how things work and how it actually works in our lives. Faith is believability. To believe that things will work out in our lives although logically it can't. So how do emotions come in play?

Well, emotions happen when there is a conflict between logic and faith. That's where confusion, sadness, anger and other feelings happen. Yeap, that's how I feel things are like actually.

I was thinking as I headed home today from work around 10:00pm. There isn't anything inspirational these days. Everything I am writing seems so plain and boring.

Anyway, Qing Ming was like a last Sunday. Thus, I was commenting to my dad that this is the period where the cemetery seems the liveliness among all other times. No offence to anyone, however if you ever get a chance to be stuck in a jam going to the cemetery... that's the time. You'll see lots of people moving around the cemetery to burn offerings, or searching for their love one's tombstone. I did my share visiting several love ones together. It's sad sometimes.

However, for sure, I am always very pissed when I go to the cemetery. Firstly, I never like anyone to mess around with the dearest woman in my life grave. Honestly, if I can scold my Dad, I would have done so a long long time ago. It's not that I do not appreciate his effort to keep the plants growing at the tombstone area. However, the feeling I get is that he is doing gardening more than respecting.

Secondly, I never like other 'outsiders' to touch and meddle with the tombstone. Don't even comment on it. How do you feel if an 'outsider' comes around and comment that your love ones' graveyard looks so plain and show add items to beautify it? Ain't a graveyard meant to be plain and simple? It's for people to go over there and respect the decease?

Argh, if I ever die, I would rather be burn to ashes and scatter around a location. Ashes to ashes, dust to dust... that's how things should be. Sounds kinda cheezey, but true.

It's so weird when you try to give a hint to someone, some people just do not understand. Either the hint is too profound or you are really lousy in giving hints. For me, if you hint me to keep my mouth shut... I'll catch it fast. If a person is hinting me that she likes me or whatever so, I got to admit... I'm very very slow on that area. Maybe it's because I'm scare that I mis-understood the 'signal', maybe it's just the fear of rejection again.

1 more week to go. I wonder how much is there for me to enjoy for? I got to admit that I've learn and still learning a great deal of things. It's definitely useful in my life especially when credit looks so attractive sometimes. Anyway, it's going to be over quickly and I'll be back at the fishy home again with my other friends.

To all brothers and sisters in secondary school, exams is going to be a month or two away, do study hard or what Huda will say, "Smart"... Whatever it is, as long as you are my brother or sister, you're already a winner in my eyes. There ain't no loser as long as you try your best and believe that you can achieve.

Siglapians motto: "We believe we can achieve" Yes, we can!

Tried to do night shift for a little while today. It's kinda a different feeling especially when the bell really didn't stop ringing at all. All thanks to JB!! Thanks for the extra workload imposed. Anyway it was worth the experience.

Well, I'm gonna miss Paul-ine... he has left for China for a week on a school assignment and will be returning at the same time with Hippo. Ain't that great? No meaning to it... although one of my brothers did mentioned about something to do with coming back hand in hand. Haha just kidding. If Paul-ine sees this, 'she' will definitely flip and do a bear-hug on me. You wouldn't want to think about what will be happening next...

Anyway, life's good although it's seriously lacking spices and sweetness... just lots of work to do and things to settle.

Ok, let's talk about humans being naive. Since I'm in the banking industry currently. Like all other professional analyst or consultant would say, "Do not invest, purchase, buy or whatever you call it, when you are unsure or you do not understand the features." The increasing number of bankruptcy today, is mainly due to humans not being about to comprehend how the banking or investment products works.

If you understand it well and know what are the pitfalls to avoid, it will work wonders for you. However, if you signed up like a blur sotong, and incur debts after debts, do not blame others for not informing you... why not ask yourself the question of not bothering to go the extra mile by asking more? Do not be deceive by the greed of earning more money, when there isn't such a lovely dream all the time.

Well, life isn't fair... there are winners and losers in this world. Winners that thrive on the losers and losers that thrive on the ultimate losers. It's a vicioucs cycle... when one gains, the other loses something. It's similar to a zero-sum game, however not totally as well. Both parties can gain, however one or the other would bound to lose something else. If the World is full of winners, is it possible? Are there differences among winners? Define the meaning of winning in your life?

Life is all about the definition that humans think that they should live life this way. That's why there are people who are crazy enough to think that their lives belongs to the Devil, instead of the Father. Define to me, what does the perfect life is like?

I'm so tired now and I feel that I am just blab-ing about matters that are so old-fashion and out of date. Well, till next time .. and Good Night