I really hate waiting for things sometimes...

Waiting for the buses to arrive, when it is suppose to be damn efficient.

Waiting for the computer to start up, when it is suppose to be fast to process.

Waiting for electronic items to load, when it is suppose to be relatively faster than manual work.

Damn it! Are these things actually suppose to make life easier or more complicated for humans? OMG!!

I was like waiting for a damn bus till I started to punch the pillar of the bus stop to vent out the anger and frustration. Temper is rising again... must be the weather! haha, humans are always so good to play the 'blame game' as usual. I wonder why?

Anyway, I was thinking about my life so far. The way I handle things and the way I work for people. Then I realise and always remind myself that there is a reason why I am willing to help and work for them, if not, I wouldn't even do anything for them.

For an example, Wolf. A brother to me, someone who cares and someone that I would support in terms of bring the District together. Someone that I would go an extra mile to settle administrative matters as well as to plan activities. Yeah, it took up my time, however, to help and assist a person like him... I do feel the satisfaction.

Another example, Anna. My supervisor... someone who takes patience to tolerate my nonsense and slowness in learning. Man, I could tell that she is sick of seeing me going to her to ask her questions after questions. Well, she is one hell of a lady. I thought to myself today, it's just a 2 months attachment only. How come I have to put in so much effort to try my best? Is it for the grade? Is it to show that I can do well? But I'm sure for one thing after more than a month, she is one lady I would gladly work for, with the exception of all the troubles and headaches given to her.

There are so many people that I consider as brothers and sisters, such as Bee, Jedi, Dickphine, Paul-ine, Gibbon, Ralphie, Big Boss, Hippo, Stefy, Euodia, Waiman, Huda, Turtle, who else is missing? Haha... okay lah, if I continue to write everyone, this entry is going to be at least a 10,000 word essay.

Well, the suicide date was kinda fun. Lots to eat... Jack's Place at Marina Square, Mango desserts at Plaza Singapura and Ben and Jerry's at The Cathay. All within about 2 hours? Well, had a nice time ... maybe next time we can go and catch the band playing ba... anyway if those who know I am talking about... she talks on the phone ... to someone like ... lalala. (Beep beep beep).

Okie dokie, my uncle is back from Adu Dubai, I wonder what's with the sudden return? Anyway, looks like my Dubai trip has to be post-pone again. I just found out that I do not have a single holiday break from school this year. It's like... WTH! WTFish.. Argh!! I wanna self-declare the first week of the new term as a personal holiday!

Alright, I just wanna go out and have a good time with people around me anyway. Like how I told Juanie, life in polytechnic or anywhere else, isn't just about studying, competition or working, there is more to it, especially the people about you. You don't have to tell others about what you do to make other people know, every action counts, every thought counts, every care and concern counts...

Life is just a white lie sometimes, to handle people tactfully and to allow people to feel good even thought the truth is kinda opposite. That's how customer service works actually... who likes to hear that he or she is a sucker and downright to earth loser that shouldn't exist for consuming addition food and adding waste on Earth. No one, right? Everyone wants to hear how much they are meaningful in this tiny puny Earth. That's the right attitude but too much of it, it can be kinda irritating sometimes.

Hmmm, Happy Belated Birthday to Bee!! Let's sing him the baby bumble bee song!! Wee...

How does it feel like when you are betrayed by someone you trust most? How hurtful is the feeling itself?

Different people has different experience of being hurt by someone you trust or someone you love. Even God is hurt sometimes when He sees his children not trusting and loving him. There is no proof to this statement. However, since God created us as His image, whatever we feel, it is from Him.

I've cause much hurt to many people who love and trust me. And at the same time, I do experience too. A lady once told me that when she trust someone, she really does treasure that friendship, unless something terrible actually takes place to harm the relationship. Similarly, to most people, when you trust someone, you tend to be more comfortable with them. You tend to share more of your life experience and thoughts about life. You tend to be more open in the way you act and speak especially. All these compare to a stranger or someone you barely know?

Who would have thought that the boy who constantly stand outside the Principal's office during Primary school to be who he is today? Who would have thought that the boy would is so afraid of darkness when he is younger, to walk in darkness with courage and strength? Who would have thought that the boy that people dislikes, have change so much over the years? Surely, this isn't only my comment... Turtle agrees with it too, right?

Well, away with the emotional talks.

Looking forward in life, what is my dream and ambition? I seriously do not know. Ever since pre-school, I never know and determine what kind of job I will be taking on... I always thought that I am a bummer and slacker. When I see how people plan their future and work towards it and achieving it, I envy them. I seriously do... Then I think about it, why can't I do it as well? What's stopping me?

Anyway, Happy Belated 20th Birthday to Amanda Jie. There isn't much special events going on this year for you, from me. However, I would like to thank you for being such a loving sister that is my pillar of strength ever since knowing you. You're one of those, I'll do my best to protect in life. And I appreciate that during times of trouble and sorrow, you turn to me. Let's meet up next week with the other ladies... it's been some time since we have a meal together as brother and sisters.

Hillsongs United concert is coming up... Planetshakers concert is on the 10th and 11th of April... I wonder if she is interested to go again? I pray and pray that God will continue to guide her in life as she break away from me since graduation. I do admit that I can't like her anymore, however, she still does have a special place in my mind.

Life's Good... if you want it to be and believe it to be.

If it ain't making the person you are talking to happy, why continue? Sometimes, I do ask myself this question. Am I doing the right things? Am I doing things that make people happy about themselves?

I don't have a nice smile. I don't have good looks. I don't have the friendly atmosphere around me. And most of all, first impressions are always negative.

Spoke to this girl during the rival matches of the night. Manchester United v.s. Liverpool. Man, I love the way Man Utd score against the Reds. Just splendid. OK ok back to topic.

Ain't it a wonderful thing when you see a message or receive a call from someone special, which brightens your heart and brings a smile to your face? Yeap, there are several special people in my life (especially my beloved god-sisters) that brings a smile to my face, each time we talk to each other. The most naughty and irritating of them all is ... (drum roll ...), you know who you are, need not to say out in public.

Anyway, the point is, at the moment when you need someone to cheer you up, the person is there for you. When you experience a sucky day at work, the person is there for you. When you feel like giving up, the person is there for you. Besides our beloved Father, it can be rather selfish to ask the person to be constantly there for you.

Well, living your life each day, aimlessly, is never a good feeling. The feeling of being lost, being cast-away and being neglected would haunt you day and night. That's what I am feeling each day. There was a time when I would work hard and prove to my family that I am worthy and recognised through my academic results. There was a time when I would work hard and prove to the scouts that I am a leader. There was a time when I would work hard and do my best to make that girl happy. There was a time when I give up my personal life just to fulfill others.

Now the time has come for me to choose the path that I am going to take again. I would where God will lead me to. Honestly, since 2005 till present, I have been telling myself that I need a break. I need to travel overseas, just to break away from the lifestyle of Singapore, for a while. I had a chance for an all expense paid trip to Japan, however I gave that up, as I could not afford to give up my passion and obligations. I, now have a chance for a trip to Dubai, and I am hoping that the coming holidays, I would be able to go and enjoy my time there.

If only I have an island by myself to spent time at. The blue ocean, the sunshine, the palm trees and a hut... sitting on the chair with a cold lemonade in my hand... Sounds like Hawaii to me. :)

Well, time flies, attachment is going to be over soon. Next up on the agenda, schooling and biking. I need a bike urgently... No more squeezing in trains anymore then!

Reading the newspaper today about buying happiness, reminds me of the long feuding issue of how to achieve happiness. Can money really buy happiness? I agree to a certain extent. This is especially so when you use the money to bring about happiness to others most of the time.

Think about the scenes when you see the ones you love being happy, just because you brought them something that they like. Or treat them out of a meal. Think about these little acts as something that will bring a smile to your face and heart as you see them being happy too.

Earning money isn't an easy thing. People work hard and slog for hours and hours to earn money to feed themselves as well as their family.

Well, one of the topics written in the article was about giving to charity. Aside with the scams that people make used of, in the name of charity, giving money or items that are useful to people who needs them also brings about joy and happiness to one's soul. Didn't God created humans to love each other as neighbours?

I met this junior just a while ago. She is a cutie, in terms of typical young Singaporeans boys point of view. She was 'doing' flag day, with a faithful assistant. (No worries, it wasn't me doing it). Well, chatted for a while however, she remembered me about my younger days. The times when trouble looks for you whenever you go. Well, to that girl, if you run into any trouble, give me a call. I'll try my best to swim over as fast as possible. However, at the mean time, stay out of trouble. You'll find that it is just a waste of time, dealing with trivial matters each day that can be avoided.

To my suicide date partner, Thursday meeting is on. Erm, what's your budget for the meal? I ain't rich, just to let you know first. :P

I think, it's time to brush up my skills again. This is especially so when you start to lose touch of basic skills and then, you tend to forget basic stuff needed for this and that. This doesn't mean I am not qualify to teach and guide the younger ones. This is just to facilitate a better and more efficient teaching instead.

Well, as expected, the hike is cancelled and changed to a movie outing. When will there be someone who is willing to go all out for a nature hike without needing to worry about safety vehicles and rain? Ain't we scouts that goes out to adventure? Regardless of what, the next time round, I'm going with or without a group of people. Argh. My dear brother, ain't we reckless humans as before? Or maybe, it's just me being reckless most of the time...

Huda, study smart eh! Forget about what other people comments and just do your best. Isn't that what you learn from scouting? To do your best... same goes to you, Waiman.

Hippo, enjoy your trip to Thailand, don't forget to buy back something for me. Haha just kidding, just take good care of yourself and avoid injuries.

Paul-ine, I love you... wahaha that's the ultimate level from me to you. Don't get jealous okay, Dickphine.

Well, enjoy Easter Sunday everyone...

Ever watched Russell Peter's comedy? The all time favorite phrase being, 'Be a man, Do the right thing!'. Does this ring any bells to you?

Well, true enough, most people these days ain't being a man and ain't doing the right thing. There used to be a time when people honor their words by delivering their promises. There was a time when people act upon what they say. However, these days, the number of people honoring their words, seems to diminish.

Problem with the word 'Honoring', these days, is that people do not honor God, their family, friends, precious lives, words, actions and other matters. Due to the self-centre mindset of yours, you neglect the lives of others. Due to the greed of money and lust, you neglect the lives of people surrounding you.

Where has the words of loving and caring for the society comes into play? What does volunteerism means again? What does going the extra miles for people means again?

Are these just acts of kindness just a play? Or meaningless things that allow humans to pass their time on Earth?

I do admit sometimes, when I see a tissue on the floor that someone else drops, I didn't encourage him or her to pick it up and throw in the bin. I do admit sometimes that when someone falls accidentally, I wasn't there to assist him or her. I do admit sometimes, that when someone drops stacks of papers while walking, I didn't stop to assist. I guess I'm just as human as anyone else.

However, given the status of helping a total stranger compared to helping someone you know, who will have the priority first?

Anyway, 3 more weeks till the end of the attachment. Feelings are kinda mixed, I guess that I'll get attach to something that I find that is worth my effort and time, easily. Just like when I find a lady that is worth loving and caring for who she is, easily. However, breaking apart from these strings of attachment are usually a hard thing for me, unless some things made me change my mind.

Well, asides with all the complains and tiredness coming from it, I do enjoy the attachment with all the laughter and joy with the bunch of friends. I do not call them colleagues, as colleagues are people who are total strangers to me, but in the same company.

Well, time flies, soon it will be back to school to slog again. I'm going to do better this time, I pray.

Headaches after headaches. The brain seems to be pounding harder and harder as I have to think more and more of ways to handle customers' 'under the sunshine' requests. I really wonder sometimes, is money that evil? Yeah, money makes the 'World' goes round. The 'World' of humans to go round and round. There isn't any limit to earning money for anyone.

You may claim that you want to earn up to a million dollars today. And stop to enjoy life. But how much can a million dollars allow you to live your life comfortably with the inflation's going around the financial system? It will only become a mindset that you need to earn more money to keep up with your lifestyle and to retire comfortably. Is that true?

Anyway, work was kinda more less tense and more cheerful today. Thank God for His assistance and love. Thank Him for the confidence, courage and strength to handle customers. Thank Him everything that He set out for me. Ain't He a wonderful person to be in your life?

Ok, Saturday's Night Hike is confirm... regardless of rain or dry weather condition. I can't wait to see how it goes again. The last time I did such a hike was when I was only a scout. Looking back, I see myself as someone who is scare of taking risk and afraid of the dark. Saturday, I would see myself as a changed person. Someone who has an appetite for risk as well as willing to face the darkness with new courage. However, will I be able to do that to the girl I like?

The happiest person in Singapore, that's the subject that appeared in The New Paper today. I wonder, do we really have such a person existing? Singapore being a cosmopolitan and competitive society, is a place where the survival of the fittest gets to play in. If you are lagging by a second, you get dropped out. Since young, most Singaporeans are conditioned to be on the edge of the competition. To enter the best university and stuff. There only seem to be one route in life to most people. To study hard, earn a degree and work. Sometimes, when I look back in my life, am I going in that direction too?

Do I study for the first half of my life, and work for the other half till I die? Have I done anything that I would regret not trying to do during my youthful days? Am I enjoying life the way God wants me to? or am I just wasting my life away?

Seriously, people has been telling me to go to Church every Sunday and going to religious events. I do not doubt that God exist. I do not doubt that His Words are real. I do not doubt that His Love is real. I just doubt that with God by your side, can't we feel the same love, care and concern? Do we have to feel those only through fellowship or attending Church every Sunday?

Isn't the acceptance of Christ in your heart and soul the way to having God accepting you? or do we have to prove our worth by going to Church each Sunday without fail to allow God to accept you? I do feel the lost of connection from God sometimes, however, being a rebellious kiddo, I do not intend to follow rules set by humans all the time. The only weird thing is, do humans follow the rules of the World or the rules by Jesus?

To end off, life is short and fragile. It can bring about another life, or it can cause another life to end. Whatever it is, in a blink of an eye, you will see yourself in situations such as death of a family member or friend. So instead of waiting for such a situation to happen, why not tell your friends how much they mean to you as well as taking an proactive action to make life easier for people around you.

Pro activeness and initiative seems to be losing it's touch in the human race from generation to generation. Soon, people will just sit down and wait for instructions given instead of taking a step forward to do additional things. When that day comes, maybe there isn't much hope left on Earth.

Well, Melody, dinner next week, don't forget?
Turtle, dinner some day as well?
Let me know again :)

I've decided to give up something in life temporary. It's kinda rush decision some may think, however, I'll just try to forget about it until the one comes along. I'll pull the plug for now.

Anyway, I've found a cool place to chill out at, just yesterday. It's at Ben and Jerry!! Well, this particular outlet is not the normal Ben and Jerry outlet you will in the heartlands and stuff. Ben and Jerry (The Cathay) is where live band performance is staged each night from Monday to Saturday.

You'll get to see love birds flocking to that outlet, after 930pm (I think), to chill out and listen to live band performing their songs and stuff. A comfortable environment with couple seats or group seating, a dose of sinful ice cream and a live band performing... what more can you ask for? Be it a couple date or group date, this is one place for music and ice cream lovers to hang out at.

Check out Melissa, who I think is a staff and singer at the outlet. She has a decent voice and the band members, I guess are staffs too. It's just awesome to be working and doing what you like most as well. Isn't that how life should be like when you work?

How many people is working for the sake of money alone? Why ain't people working for what they love to do and at the same time for the financial income to support your life as well as your family? I guess, in this World, there isn't such a thing existing all the time. Generally, people are force to make choices and give up opportunities after opportunities, just to earn a decent income for their lifestyle.

Macaw was right to a certain extent about earning money and being with Scou Ting. I do appreciate for the reminder. However, I guess our priorities and life ambitions are not exactly the same.

I do want to earn lots of money to live a comfortable life and to support my family and relatives comfortably. However, in today's context, earning money never seems to be enough for anyone at all. This becomes a vicious cycle in life, that you need more money and more money to live life. Is that so?

A girl once asked me for my life ambition. (I think I am repeating this words again from a previous entry). Well, I just want to live a simple life at a corner of the Earth, with the girl I love. Of cos' that girl must be able to love me and accept it too. There is no point in me loving and following my ambition, but the girl doesn't at all. Right? Then that probes me to another question. Is there such a girl who is willing to sacrifice the life in the city for this?

I am starting to think that I am a very weird human. As people today starts to think of how to live their life in the future, I am thinking why the World is moving in the direction of destruction and chaos. While others think of how their personal life is going to be life soon, I am thinking why am I place on Earth for? I wanna forget all these and just live my life like how some people do. To hack care about other matters and just live for yourself. However, the conscience and probing doesn't allow me to stop thinking. Thinking of what is my destiny suppose to be like? Am I going insane? Am I being out of place?

Well, time will tell... time will time. I do not know this mentality is childish, child-like or mature. However, someone has been telling me that my mentality is being childish all these time. I do agree that these days, I am being more playful and childish. I can be quite an irritant depending on the tolerance level of the people around me. However, not forgetting that I was force to be mature at a very young age, I still do carry out my responsibilities based on my principles in life. So no worries about my life, my brothers and sisters. I rather you worry about our other brothers and sisters around us, that needs more concern and love. I am fine without any, but I am not fine when it comes to giving love and concern to others.

Love is an incredible force that can either give life to people or kill people.

Today was the first day on the platform. I was really scare at first... and of cos', now I still do when picking up calls. There isn't really such a thing to be readily prepared unless you have a vast knowledge of the products in your mind all the time. Apparently, I do not.

I was really relying a lot on the seniors, especially so when it comes to using the system to check on records and answering queries. Anyway, the worse I had so far was a customer laughing at me for being inexperience and wanted to talk to my manager instead. Well, I can't blame him, I am really that inexperience in such things. I'll just stick around longer to learn and gain experience from answering more calls, I guess.

Anyway life ain't that smooth these days as I have mentioned. When my results came out, I was kinda disappointed. 1 A, 3 Bs, 1 C, 2 Ds. I mean, what the hell. 2 Ds!! on Financial Planning and Understanding Relationship: Love and Sexuality.

When I saw that the module on Understanding Relationship had a D+. I was thinking... Do I really suck at relationship that besides real life bf/gf relationship, I had to nearly fail a paper module on it. It was a sign to me... a bad sign. For the rest of the modules, it was kinda expected. No one to blame except myself... being too unfocused and playful.

My brother Macaw had a talk to me in my involvement in Scou Ting. He didn't really like the idea of me being with her external affairs too much. Anyway, I just want to say. In life, my principle is to help those who I considered them as brothers and sisters, to the best of my ability. Even if I have to sacrifice the time of resting, I will do it as much as I can help. There is no forcing or threats, just pure voluntary on my part.

Well, when people ask me why I continue to love Scou Ting? My answer is because she is already part of my life. I know it doesn't earn me money to be with her. I know she zaps my strength too. I know all these too well. However, I believe that there is more than life than to earn money and stuff. I am not neglecting my responsibility as an adult to earn money to support our family, just wanting to experience life more than just relying on money.

Well, until I get my life straighten out, I guess I will just be running around in circles. :)

It's so difficult to voice out your feelings for someone when you feel that the next word that she'll say is just another rejection remark. Ain't that right?

Well, these days, it's been kinda hectic for me. Seriously, I wonder how people live their lives when working office hours each day? I've been experiencing this fixed schedule each day that I am seriously getting bored about my life even more. Here is a little timetable of my life...

7am - Wakey
9am - Work begins
6pm - Work ends
730pm - Reaches home

Man oh man...

I'm glad things went well on Saturday night. It was a roller coaster night as my heart sank to the bottom when I heard my brother was not ready to be investiture. That was really the lowest point of that day. By God, 2 brothers joined the SandS Family. Ain't that a happy thing to cheer about?

Anyway I always enjoyed talking to a Brother Wolf. Most of the times, he either enlightens me or reinforce my principles in life. I look up to him one way or another in some aspect of my life. I guess he is another all-rounder, just like me.

Argh, seriously, I am finding my life going hay-wire again. Each semester, I will find myself looking at my priorities in life. And I always end up thinking for so long that I realise I just completed the semester already. I think I am just going to let my priorities to be decided by Him and take a small step each time.

I wanna thank Huda and Waiman for helping out on Saturday morning till afternoon. You girls, better be doing your Job Week well. Whatever you face in life, go forth with wisdom and courage. Don't give up yet. Whenever there is someone supporting you, many others will follow soon. :)

And to the little girl that I have a liking. Yeah, it's you. The one who had big dreams. The one who had another boy (that boy) in her heart. The one is undergoing a major change this year. You are the one.

To my God-sisters, if you ever read my blog, well... I just want to say that I love you and miss you all. No matter where you are on Earth, I'll remember and be there for you. :)

Well, enough of blogging already for me. Till I get more energy first.

Feelings does change...

Words indescribable...

Love irresistible...

Strength depleting bit by bit....

Weakness exposing...

Life weakening each day...

Sickness and death looms nearer and nearer...

Confusion whirls in the head...

The flesh tearing apart...

This Saturday night, all hopes are pin on it. It either make it or break it. If it breaks, I'm gonna just start letting go of my hopes. If it makes it, I'll continue to believe it will last for generations to come. Scary shit, right? But, after 2 years of forming this Rover unit, nothing much has progress in terms of brother/ sisterhood, skills advancement, personal development, activities and more. What do we do for these 2 years? Just service, just a few representative going to national meetings to show our faces? What else?

Funny thing when she spoke to me that night. She told me to just go for whoever the girl is and date her out. She told me to not let that girl wait and wait. I don't know what to do, but surely, the message goes out to different people.

Yeap, to the girl that I am starting to like about her. Seems kinda silly to go after a girl, whose heart has someone else in it. But well, I'm in no hurry and not a desperate lover at the moment. If it comes my way, I'll just embrace it tightly.

Another group of people are what I call Brothers. Dating you guys out is like calling a stop to this World. Who doesn't have our own personal life? Who wants to make sacrifices at midnight, to hang out with a group of Brothers?

For me, I do. Not that I do not have a life in me, but because I am willing to sacrifice just a mere fraction of my life, my sleeping time, my precious moments for a Brother. A Brother that long deserves to be investiture along with us. A Brother that contributed as much as anyone of us.

I'm so tired of chasing people. I'm so tired to chasing dreams. I just want to rest. Rest a long long time. What's my dream again?

To lead a simple life with the girl that loves me, somewhere at the corner of the World.

How resilient can the young Singaporeans be in the future? That was the topic of the day for me when I read The New Paper earlier.

Well, my thoughts to it... Yesh, I agree we are growing smarter and smarter each day. Learning new skills, inventing new products to suit our nation's needs and exploring other areas of life. With such advancement from a tiny fishing village to a Global city today, that shows how resilient our nation has been in the past as well as the present. What about the future?

The future is bright and will only be brighter as the younger generations progressively move forward each day. In terms of education, sports, talents and many other areas, we're truly building a nation of opportunities. However, with all these in place, how many students do actually feel that way?

Among the thousands of students in schools today, they are fighting competitively to enter into the Best secondary schools, the Best Junior colleges, the Best polytechnics, the Best universities and the Best career path. So much so that some became too obsess with the word 'Best' and forget the word humility.

Experiencing humility is never a de-grading or 'throw-face' thing. It is to be humble and to help others with the Best of Your abilities. Well, this is my opinion though... there are bound to have millions of reasons to things out there in the World.

Definition of resilience:
The ability to recover quickly from illness, change, or misfortune; buoyancy
(Taken from: http://www.thefreedictionary.com/resilience)

So much comments have been going on about the meaning behind Total Defence Day in schools and students not appreciating what they have now and then. I do understand the underlying meaning of Total Defence, which has the same meaning to the Scout motto; to Be Prepared.

Can the younger Singaporeans do it? Yes, I believe so. Despite the lack of experience and the lack of discipline at the moment. When the need arises, the Young Singaporeans will adapt to changes and live with it. Or they will change things around and make the future better. Like I had mentioned in several entries ago, believing is the key. As long as people in Singapore believe that the Younger ones can do it. They will be able to do it, and may even exceed our expectations. Thus, before talking about resilience, talk about believing in the opportunities set for the Young Singaporeans.

Well, back to my un-entertaining life at the moment. I wish she understand what I have been telling her. I'll make the first move, whether I am to fall into a bottomless pit hole or stand firm on concrete ground... it's definitely up to Him. Am I rushing into things again? Am I scaring her away? Am I doing too much unnecessary things in my life again? Am I deviating from my priorities again?

ANNOUNCEMENT: 8th March 2008, 12 midnight, Rover meeting at Pasir Ris Park, Mangrove Swamp... if possible, wear Full uniform. If not, something scouty. I'll be there no matter how many of you decide to turn up... it will be a special night for one of our brothers. :)

Walking through Millena Walk during lunch time, it is really a sight to see how educated people would acted in reserving places for lunch. I got to really say, using tissue papers to 'book' your seats, doesn't only apply at coffee shops. Ever wonder who started such a trend in Singapore?

Anyway, having read the news on a series of events happening in Singapore as well as Overseas. There was a particular section that caught my attention. Based on The New Paper (dated: 3rd March 2008), there is this actress, who commented on the 9/11 incident as a hoax. Moreover, she gave her explanation as to why she commented that way. I was really amuse that people are still coming up with reasons and explanation on that particular incident.

True, enough, I do feel that the World today, is in a blur between truth and lies. Who knows that one day, all humans will wake up from this dream or nightmare and begin to live the lives that we are meant to live? Who knows that we are being deceive for all these years by men who only hungers for power and control? Imagine the World, very much like those sci-fi movies like Matrix. Not so much of a happily ever after episode, right?

Well, life ain't a simple game to play about. People talk about living great dreams, earning big bucks and changing the world... but their efforts are only a small part in making the World revolve around the human race. Even without their efforts, the World is still revolving round and round in the solar system. I believe that all of us are meant to be in a bigger and grand plan that enable us to live our lives happily. Ain't that what Daddy wants?

To love each other as brothers and sisters in this universe, regardless of race, language, religion, skin colours, and culture. Is it so difficult and conflicting to let go of pride and ego? Or is there more things to it?

Love... is it such a difficult thing to obtain and let go? How deep can one love the other? How painful can one let go of it? I believe everyone have their share of romance and break-ups. I do too... but nothing compares to falling in love than to break up and let go of the bond that a couple has built for so long.

I do agree and feel the same as some people. Even after you break-off with the one you love, it takes a long time to recover and let go of that bond. It is like taking a piece of your life and throwing it away. No doubt that memories will be triggered, now and then, of the times you share with the person you once loved or love now. However, it is also due to the mental strength and courage to break away from being depressed and upset that the relationship didn't turn out the way you want it to be.

I would like to be there for you, girl. But first, you must learn to let go of the past. If not, I can't imagine how to progress forward.