31 December 2007

Well, 2007 was indeed a blessed year with lots of favour and grace from the Father. I pray that in 2008, this coming year, there will be more favour, more blessings, more grace and more love.

So many things had changed along the way in 2007, so much so that I can't recognise some people and some ways of life. Well, as 2007 comes to pass, some things will be left behind while others will be brought forward to 2008.

I just want to thank God for such a wonderful year despite lots of shit stuff happening in my life at times, which I am still recovering from. Haha Lord, you have a characteristic of not letting go of your people (who you love so much). I think I got that trait from you too! Not letting go so easily of the one that I love. But soon... just soon.

I want to thank my family. Dad and brothers who have been a support as well as nuisance in my life. Lots of bitter-sweet moments, which make my life ever interesting.

I want to thank my God-sisters and God-brothers. If you still remember me, I want to thank you for your love, care and concern. :))

I want to thank the scouts and scout leaders that I have met and will be meeting more often in future. Cool bunch of people who makes up my life too. You know who you are eh! Need not say names right?! Haha. Generally people from Tampines and Serangoon District (North-East Area), PLTC 07 Kiddies, Singapore Rovers.

I want to thank my Poly mates, who has been a great support during my time so far in Poly. Without them, I will be a stray fish, swimming around. Thanks for the accompany, for the notes and for the friendship. This includes NP CG !!!

I want to thank my Secondary school mates, people who still keeps in touch with me. Lots of thanks and love to you guys. Haha sound so girl suddenly. Well, when Pufferfish returns again, we'll meet up with her again for another outing? What do you guys think?

I want to thank Fisherians @ TM, who has been a fun-loving bunch of people that makes working there fun and easy. :))

Lastly, to two ladies that held a special place in my heart.

To see you change so much that I can no longer recognise who you are now, it's a sad thing for me. Sorry for causing so much trouble in your life. Maybe, soon enough, I will recognise the New you. Otherwise, I wouldn't know what to do again.

For the other, you have disappeared long enough, I pray that you are safe wherever you are and whatever you do. We'll be waiting for you to come back into our lives again. As wanting you, to be part of my circle of friends, is never a regrettable experience. Hope to see you again someday.

Good night brothers, Good night sisters, Good night brothers.... Till we meet again. Merrily we row along, row along. Merrily we row along, over the deep blue sea.

29 December 2007

Date: 27th to 29th Dec 2007
Event: White Stag and Kijang Combined Camp

Well, I got to admit that who in the right mind would have a camp on the last week of December, where most people would just want to enjoy their last bit of holidays. Anyway, the camp was not run by the scout leaders, nor ventures, nor scouts for the first time. It was ran by an external service provider (who I shall not name).

Well, generally, the camp was normal (in my opinion). Nothing much exciting or dull. Maybe it was the participation rate and the maturity of the participants involved. Thus, I have to say, the younger the participants involved, the easier it is to satisfy their excitement during activities. The more mature the participants are, the more they expect and, of cos', they have better experience in games or activities that are being repeated over and over again.

But one thing, I am really happy about for the bunch that I taught so far, are that they learnt some basic skills and remembered the least to make use of them when the need arises. An example was fire lighting, I don't know why my scouts love this activity so much so that I have to place a restriction on it. However, due to their passion in it, they remember it well.

Seriously, seeing one batch after another grow up to be a better scout with skills equipped in their lives, does bring greater satisfaction. I wonder, if this is the reason why the older leaders still carried on Scouting too?

Anyway, the camp is over, and I hope that there will be a bond created between the two units. :))

25 December 2007

Merry Christmas to all Bloggers and friends, who are still reading my blog that has been irregularly updated. :) May the good Lord bless your day and stay happy.

Well, there'll be a family gathering at one of the auntie's place. So yeap, I can't say that I can't wait to see everyone. But I do have a good feeling that somehow, this Christmas gathering will be more memorable one, compared to the past few years.

Lots of chatting, food and sing-a-long session awaiting.

Anyway, what's Christmas if we do not praise the Lord for coming to this tiny puny planet to save our souls and redeem us? Isn't the whole focus of Christmas about HIM?

Well, for some, Christmas is also a time of gathering and sharing of gifts with one another. So in the spirit of sharing, I pray that someday somehow, enemies will lay down their weapons, and reconcile with each other for the better of the human race. For World Peace!

23 December 2007

It's Sunday!! And guess what... I'm going for the Indoor Service at 1000 hrs. My church friends were quite surprise to see me there as they knew that Sunday is deem as Family Day for me and that an outing with my friends on that day, under normal circumstances, is a big NO NO.

Well, after service, the family did gather with my auntie and cousin for lunch at Suntec City. The older generations were picking presents to purchase for the other cousins that are not around at that moment. We had lunch at Crystal Jade Kitchen. I had quite a feast there myself as I cleared my own order of YangZhou Fried Rice, ate my brother's share of Hokkien Fried Rice, had Prawn Dumpling (Ha Kou), Siu mai, Beijing Duck and Empress Chicken Soup. Yeap, guess my appetite is coming back and strong. So does the fats soon, if I do not resume exercising.

Nothing much going on with my life at the moment, just need to buy all the presents owing by tomorrow, although I haven't brought any yet!! :)

21 December 2007

Seems like there is an on-going Korean drama craze around my social group. Well, I can't totally say that I am not into Korean drama or movies, however, I'm not a die-hard fan, that's for sure.

Well, 2 Korean movies did have a strong impact in my life, as in, they'll be etched on my mind for a long time. The 2 movies are Windstruck and My Sassy Girl. Both stories, can be term as romantic and a little bit of drama and comedy. My reason for liking these two movies, is the storyline as well as the actress, Jun Ji-hyun. Well, she has the character and cuteness there, so that's the attraction.

Well, there is an on-going drama series named Witch Yoo Hee. I'm sure lots of you have heard about it or at least seen it. I saw it the night before, by chance actually and when I saw the lead actress, Han Ga In, I was riveted by the television side till the programme ended. Yeah of cos', there's Dennis Oh, where all the girls will go ga-ga over him. If you don't believe me, I've met one that has already done so. Right, Missy?

And to add to that coincidence, before even I have seen that particular drama series, Lynnie sent me a song a few days ago. Well, this particular song is a Korean song and the OST of the drama series. When I first heard it (of cos' I don't understand their language), the tune to the song was very smoothing. So, yeap, thanks Lynnie for sharing.

Well, drama series, movies, films or documentary shows are very much just ideal situations that most people would like to happen in this, reality of theirs. No matter how much, people tries to create or re-enact it in their lives, I doubt it will work out that well. How many relationships have really been form in such a way that last for a long long time? How many chances are there in life that will create an ideal situation for an ever-lasting relationship? :) I doubt so, however, I believe that there will be someday. That's for sure.

Well, enough of my rambling, back to watching WITCH YOO HEE!

20 December 2007

One cycle of my life has passed without her by my side. 12 years has passed on since I last saw her. Well, I've been strong and has grown up to be a better man each day, keeping in mind that you will be watching me somewhere, somehow. I hope that I have not done anything that will make you regret and hope that whatever I have done has made you proud.

Happy Birthday to you, the one woman that has been my pillar of support for life. Happy Birthday to you for giving me life in this World. You'll never be forgotten or replaceable in my life, nor in the lives of the family.

Well another interesting video to share.

Title: Jesus take the wheel
Artist: Carrie Underwood
(Citation:http://musicforgod.org/index.phpoption=com_seyret&task=videodirectlink&id=19)


19 December 2007

Title: Why Not
Artist: Hilary Duff
(Citation: http://youtube.com/watch?v=QX8sW8xZ0rk&feature=related)

After watching The Lizzie McGuire Movie, I found myself interested in Hilary Duff's music and videos again. Weird isn't it, for old memories to come back? Well, from the lyrics of the video, it generally speaks (in my honest opinion) that if there is a chance, why not go forth and get it.

I always ask myself the question too. At times, I would encourage myself too by saying (mentally): "Hey lets go for it, lets just give it a try, why not?". However, there is always a force that will hold me back and thus, forfeiting the chance. I guess I'm not the only human feeling that as well, eh?

Nevertheless, I always keep in mind what my seniors taught me. "Shit happens sometimes" and "Assumption is mother of all screw-ups". So well, whatever events that happen in my life now are based on spontaneous feeling as well as faith. Haha, I am getting the feeling that I am into randomness now. Just it's just time to rest ... rest my heart that is beating for a long long time.

17 December 2007

Christmas is up and coming real soon. Gonna have a family gathering as usual on that day at one of my grand-auntie's place. Guess it will be a lot of catching up with the cousins and aunties and uncles. Lovely eh?

Well, the inspiration going on in my mind right now, ever since after watching Happy Feet and Bring it On: in it to win it, it's "dare to be different". Well, there aren't many similarities between both movies but, they have real cool sound tracks though. Anyway, daring to be different doesn't mean that you go around being a freak to scare the sh*t out of people.

However, it's more like being yourself even though you have different abilities. What I feel that people are being ostracised are all because of the idiotic mentality that those sick people in the past had in mind. I mean, yeah, that there is a limit to social norms in terms of manners and acts in public. However, why the differentiation of people of different skin colour? Why the separation of people with different status?

Somehow, I find that people being themselves, most of the time under normal circumstances, are at their best or most confident moment. However, as usual, due to other's mentality and characteristic, some may find it attractive yet others may find it irritating. So tactfulness plays an important part too. :)

Well a new year a new start. I wonder how my life is going to be like in 2008. I pray for more good things to happen as my eyes are being open to the creations in this world. I've been planning for my year ahead, by just slotting in scouting activities and possible major events that might happen next year. It seems to me that it will be another power-pack year again. Well, someone used to tell me to live each day as though they are your last. True in some sense, as you never know when you will be going home again.

Well, nothing much happening in my life right now, except for working, schooling and scouting. These are enough to keep my occupy for my mind to run wild again. :)

16 December 2007

What can actually stop a human to do great things that involves the lives of other people? Is it fear, condemnation, shyness or any other matter? I don't know.

Well, I had a wonderful time attending the last National Rover Round table (NRR) for the year. I've met up with people that I know and as usual, sharing and exchanging of pointers and ideas for the scouting scene in Singapore. I've always envy those people who can go fore with courage and strength, not fearing of mistakes and criticism.

For me, as I have spoken to one of the female scouters that I have respect for a very long time, that I fear of the mistakes that I will make when I guide the young ones in scouting. I always feel that these kids' lives can be change for better or worse by the values we teach as well as the actions we take upon them. Therefore, I fear to go fore and actually lead them.

Honestly, 1 year has passed and I felt that the kids under my charge has not fully benefited from scouting. I can't explain why I felt that way, however, I promise that next year will be a better year for all of us. I'll trust that the Lord will work upon these kids as well as the leaders in making our lives better and the bond stronger with each other.

Well, I have known this particular girl for about 1 month plus. The first time that I chat with her over MSN, she asked me whether there is any other thing in my life that doesn't relate to scouting? I thought for a moment and said no. It really makes me think that scouting revolves around my life so much so that it is my life itself. I can only guess how irritated she must have felt whenever we chat over MSN and scouting matters are being brought up time and again.

Non-scouting friends are also puzzled by the fact that I would be so actively involve in scouting despite my leaving of secondary school life 2 years ago. But of coz' they are no longer surprise of the countless meetings that I would have to attend or sit in to.

2008 would be an exciting year for me in the scouting scene as there are several upcoming projects that I'm interested or are already involve in, this is not including the fact of the planning I had for my own unit as well as the Rover Crew. I guess, that's how life is going to be for me. For my partner to be or whatever, she got to live with it somehow. Otherwise, there is no point ... Somehow I truly admire the relationship between Jedi and his wife, as well as Wolf and Marshmallow in their way of sustaining their relationships with each other despite the fact that the guys are so actively involve. Truly understanding women, they are.

Anyway for those who knows Airpork Jie, her baby is fine and healthy as well as very beautiful when sleeping. One month and going stronger and stronger each day. I'll pray that someday as she grows up, she would be a good and useful citizen as well as a leader just like her mom.

Well, holidays have started and I'll be working, scouting/ camping and doing projects. Dates with people wise, no worries! I'll make time for friends and buddies! So if there is anything, do ring me up for the right purpose...

I'm still waiting for pufferfish reply! Why is she taking so long?! Tsk tsk.

To my dearest PLTC kiddies...
although the gathering has been cancel, do not forget the bond and friendship you have forge during the camp! We can have another gathering some time soon, when the majority are free to hang out together. Other than that, let's just continue keeping in touch with one another. Isn't that right, Lynnie and Huda?

15 December 2007

Exams are over and I am having lots of faith and feeling abundance of grace in the Lord. Unbelievably, I manage to survive through the exam week with work, scouts, outings and a minimum amount of studying.

Okay, enough about studying for now. Anyway, during these moments that I was studying, I had a song playing in my mind that kept me thinking about myself and those around me. Well, this song is a favourite for scouts and especially girl guides. The title is "Linger". Most people would have heard it during campfires and sing-a-long sessions, but anyway this is the lyrics, which will relate to the content of the blog entry.

Um-hmm I want to linger here
Um-hmm a little longer here
Um-hmm I want to linger here with you
Um-hmm its such a perfect night
Um-hmm it doesn't seem quite right
Um-hmm that it should be my last with you
Um-hmm when come September
Um-hmm I will remember
Um-hmm our camping days and friendships true
Um-hmm and as the years go by
Um-hmm I'll think of you and sigh
Um-hmm its just good night and not good bye

Well, there were several life-changing events that people will definitely experience one way or another. However, stubborn as most people who knows me clearly, I tend to stick very much to my principles as well as my lifestyle. This is especially so if it got to do with relationship with others. I tend to linger at a spot in life for a very long time before I get up and move again.

Well, another point that I have been sharing with some brothers and sister of mine, was the stages in people's lives. On my assumption, people tend to linger at one stage in life before moving on to another. Some will have little change in them, while others will have drastic change in them. Close friends will find it obvious, while others will just look at them as nothing much.

Thus far, I have seen several people close to me having such drastic change that I can't understand why and how come to such an extent. Well, naming a few would be Heron, Macaw, Turtle, Bat, and the self-proclaim "Thirsty Hippo". Is it the cause of money that influence their lives so much? Is it the change in priorities that influence their lives so much? Is it the change in attitude and character towards life that influence their lives so much? I seriously have no clue. Well, some may tell me that I lack ambition and the drive to go for greater things. But seriously, I don't really care about much stuff in my life right now. I'm living my life as an aim to support these so-called brothers and sisters in my life to do greater things. That gives me the satisfaction rather than my own achievements.

I asked a friend recently. What is the point to see you achieve so much in life, such that your friends and family are left behind? What is the point to sacrifice your relationship with others that you once or at least call friends, when you don't share what you are achieving for? Is there not a way for people to help one another to achieve things together?

Well, I know you can't please every soul you meet, but at least offering a helping hand as much as possible... that's my principle. Ultimately, if given the choice again to give up my people for a greater achievement in life, I would still reject it through compromising methods.

It's time for me to move on as well in life, as these friends do. However, as much as I move, I would still somewhat linger around, to be there for them if they need help one way or another. After all, without these people, I wouldn't be who I am today. God has place them in my life, and they don't get to just come and go as easily as those strangers I will meet on the streets.

As petals of the black rose starts to peels and drops, how much long does it take for it to pass away? So much change that I can't recognise who you are again. Is that it?

I'm going to step out of my comfort zone and do 'unnatural' things that is going to be different from what I do normally. And with this step forward, I'll go on with just faith in those people I trust in. Whether they do succeed or fail, is really up to their choice now.

Let's break away now from the norms, but not forgetting the principles and morals that make us who we are.

08 December 2007

Well well well... less than 7 hours time is my first common test paper for the semester. Some might ask: "Why the hell are you still blogging and awake at such a moment? Shouldn't you have some rest?" Yeah, well I agree of coz'. However, I do not know the reason why too.

Care group was great as usual despite me feeling tired but also having that 'homely feeling'. We got to engage in some activities for the upcoming camp (which I will not be involve, sorry guys!). Songs of praise was great as most of the songs sang was some what on my favourites list. A minority of people from both care groups were asking me if I was new and stuff. Haha, I would be known as disappearing or phantom soon. Reasons being not able to commit to CGs and Church activities are because:

1) Scouting life is a busy and full of adventure and activities life.
2) Family life is a priority ~ rule was made by my Dad.
3) Working part-time is something that I have been managing for quite a few years and thus, seeing my "fishy family" struggling isn't a good thing.
4) Some weird thing will always appear thus hindering the activities.

Yeap, that's mostly the reason. However, as much as I would and be able to, I will participate more in the CG activities as well as Arrow ministry.

Back to studies... something caught my attention recently. I wasn't that stress or felt overloaded for this semester somehow or another. I felt peace, calm-ness and a little bit of happiness these days. I'm not sure if I'm going coo-coo or what. But I know that Daddy God is with me, watching every step I take in my daily life. He never fails to support me when I am at my lowest or when I need his help.

Honestly, I shared about God's love that makes things change. Thus I related the changes that took place during the PLTC camp. Apparently, for the first day of the camp, things weren't going as well as I expected it to be. Shit happens, yeah and stuff. However, during the night, as I walked around the campsite, I whispered little prayers that tomorrow will be a better day for all.
Well, as some would know, things are kinda quiet for day one and participants were all less interested.
However, during day two, I was surprise to see the changes progress as the day went along. This is especially so during the campfire, whereby I felt it was the peak for the participants. Man, that was how grateful for Daddy God to open my eyes to see things as it should and to allow the participants bond and open up bit by bit.

I wonder how is she now... I wonder why she didn't reply. It's been a week since her birthday. Daddy God, please bless puffer fish!

I pray that each day would be a better day for me with YOU by my side. Without YOU, I cannot conquer my fears and problems. Without YOU, I would be lonely and sad. Without YOU, I will be lost and confuse. Without YOU, there is no love.

06 December 2007

Intentions misunderstood, Actions misunderstood, Words misunderstood. What else next? Being a human is not an easy thing to be as you will be mis-interpreted many a times for the actions you take, the words you say, the intentions you have in mind.

Give me two choices to live my life from now on...
1) Being a quiet and neutral person that listens and keeps quiet about matters and not take any actions or say any words about it.
OR
2) Listening and commenting about people and their negative points as well as their positive points. And taking necessary actions in the matter.

I would choose the first choice. Reasons being, I rather avoid "stupid" troubles than to get involve in one myself. I dislike to be in a middle of a "warfare", be it politically or physically. What's the point to make your life so miserable?

Well, life is such an irony, when you refuse to listen to someone yet when the event happened. You'll think back, what she said seems to be politically correct. Waiting for approval as well as to "please" people at times, keeps sapping your energy dry and making you feel more frustrated. So from now on, I'm just going ahead with my plans and executing it, even if it means that I have to do it myself.

Brothers, I can't keep on relying on you just like that. It is disheartening as well as disappointing to see these at times. Thus I rather have no expectations from you, than to have expectations and when it doesn't gets fulfilled, I will feel like shit again.

Catch of the day: "Assumption is the mother of all screw-ups"

Thus, my life seems to be taking a dip once again so as it seems. But at the same time, I'm feeling a little more peaceful within me and calm. Seems like Daddy God is working the holy spirit in me once more.

Well, today's new module on Inter-cultural communication (CUCOM), although it isn't as interesting as Understanding Relationships for the first lesson. However, seeing familiar faces sure brings you some hope that you will survive through the class well.

One interesting thought that I was discussing with Crab earlier on, was an idea which I term as "scouting bar". Well, we were wondering if there would be someone crazy enough to open a pub or bar that only admits customers that wears the scarfs in like how scouts do. And then they order the drinks, the drinks will be named after scouting songs.

An example was, a guy ordering from the server, "Hey, I want one glass of B.P. Spirit please" or maybe "Where's my Bom Chika Bom?". It was rather a fascinating idea, to laugh about, after a day of studying and thinking of future plans and stuff. Ain't that stressful?!

Final part of the crapp-iness, was to have scouting songs turning into techno music or dance anthems. Imagine Scout Hymn going rap?! Ok enough of such wild thoughts. Lets just keep scouting as traditional as possible instead for the time being.

Well, back to fishing around and avoiding any traps of temptation or debris along the way.

04 December 2007

My life is just draining away day by day. So many times had I feel that I am holding onto something that serves no purpose and no hope for me in the end, but there is always this thing in me that tell me to keep holding on. I guess I'm not the sort of person that goes for risky stuff, as I always hold back and wait. Guess that's one part of stupidity of a Fallen Mortal. I read her stuff, I think about it even though I know it no longer concern me. She should have been out of my life, but somehow she is still deeply etched in my mind and heart.

I tried to think if I fall for some other girl, I might be able to forget. However, would it be fair for the other party? What if she decides to return someday? or maybe our path will never cross again? God knows.

From today onwards, friends will not hear my voice literally, as my sore throat got worse after another day out with my buddies. Apparently, some female buddies can't stop singing, so we had another trip to Cash Studio (a recommended place to go and chill and sing from me, now on). We had a fun time as usual, singing, playing guessing games, chatting, and maybe some bonding. Yeap... despite the fact that all of us are already on the verge of knocking out due to the latest project submission.

I saw something that breaks my heart, or maybe soften it as always. I have a dream, a dream to provide a suitable working place for those senior citizens that wants to carry on working instead of staying at home. I don't know how I am going to do it, but if there is an opportunity, I'll go for it. I can't understand why these minority would be laying mats in the middle of the street (walking street) and display items such as tissues packs and some home accessories to sell to earn that few bucks.

I always asked myself, why are their children or even grand-children doing? Are they not doing their part (moral value: filial piety) to their parents? Can they actually bear to see their parents or grand-parents doing this? It's not a shameful thing to see people selling, but it's a shameful thing if you can't even try your best to support your family. You got two hands and two legs and the ability to operate your body properly, so why can't you do anything?

Then, something cross my mind about life cycles. Well, based on the Chinese Calender, one human life cycle is 12 years. 12 years for 12 different mystical animals for each year. I have already passed one cycle and it entirely spent on schooling and studying for the text. No personal experience in life actually. I am on the second phrase of my life cycle, thus, I am still stuck on schooling and studying text. However the difference is that I gained valuable experience through working, scouting and street-life.

I can imagine how my third life cycle is going to be, as I will either be going to schooling and studying text again or into the working society. Then thinking back, I spent about 2 or more life cycles just to find a proper job to work to earn for the family. Where is the time for my personal experience in going out to the World? Maybe not when I am still stuck with so many responsibilities in life.

What a boring life I have indeed as a typical S'porean?!

Well, I'll pray and continue to believe in HIM through grace through faith. Like I told Hippo, good guys normally goes up first, I have a feeling I will be going up there in no time too. I just want to be by HIS side in comfort and peace, without worrying about anything. Worries are the number one starter for stress and condemnation of others and self is the root of all problems today and forever.

To the PLTC kiddies, the course isn't the end, but the beginning of your life as a leader to your unit, district, fellow brothers and sisters. Time to leave your comfort zone of standing by the fence and step up to the calling. You guys had fun during the camp and seminar, but now as you faced your personal challenge of being a leader, never forget that your other brothers and sisters are supporting you hand in hand too. We'll all face this together one way or another, leaving no one behind. This is because we are family in scouting. :)

01 December 2007

Another day of scouting for me as I had to force myself to wake up 0700hrs, just to travel to HQ. So... I met up with the Crab and Hippo to attend a Service-Learning (S-L) workshop as part of the Rover Progress Scheme (RPS). Initially, I was quite reluctant to go and attend a lecture and was dead tired from the lack of sleep the night before. However, for my brother and sister, I accompanied them.

Well, I saw many familiar faces at the workshop, thus getting to know each other again wasn't a problem. We had a great time together, despite that at times, I nearly fall asleep. It was fun watching people stoning and falling asleep too!

Generally, the course is to allow us to know what service learning is all about as well as how to apply it in our units as well as in our lives. Thus, what is service learning, many may ask? Well, simply put, whereby a person were to learn a new skill or knowledge, and creates a platform to apply these skills through a service to others. Sounds complicated?!

Anyway, overall, what I benefited from the workshop was how to improve my people skills as well as to understand how to coach, facilitate and think for the teams. This is especially so as I will try to embark on several projects and ideas next year for my unit as well as the district. Quote of the day: "Don't aim for perfection, aim for excellence. Don't let a minor mistake neglect the bigger outcome". Well, it means that not all mistakes are bad and by focusing only on the mistakes and not the overall picture of the project, you're neglecting your objectives and goals for the project.

Most importantly, the workshop made me reflect on my goal for 2008. Seriously, what are my goals? I don't know. I only know that I'm taking one step at a time and trusting in HIM to lead the way. So whatever that happens in my life, it is not by chance, but by fate... as chance is created by humans, fate decided by HIM... opportunities given by HIM and destiny set by HIM. So what's my next step now? I don't know.

My exams are round the corner and I have yet to revise ... however, I don't seem to worry, the feeling is not there... maybe when it gets closer like a day or two before, will I feel anxious about it.

My social life is screwed up as usual, still figuring out how to sustain friendship and relationship, however it's not going any where at all. Well, I believe in you, Father, that you will handle this with TLC!

My scouting life is fun as usual, always thinking of new ideas for camps and activities that I pray the boys will enjoy and learn. Some may ask, why I never mentioned girls along? That's because White Stag Scout Troop is an ALL BOYS unit. Waahaha... but don't worry PLTC ladies, you're not forgotten by me!! As well as the boys!!

Well, keep the spirit burning in you as ONCE A SCOUT, ALWAYS A SCOUT. :)