What's the worst thing to kill a relationship between the one you love? Jealousy? Communication breakdown? Pressure? "Controlled"?... These are the common factors that would kill a relationship in a matter of time.

However, an intangible factor that most people do not realise would kill a relationship is feeling bad towards each other. The ultimate root of cause, condemnation. Why so? When one of a couple starts to feel bad for lacking the ability to love or give the other party the best (based on their own standards), it would lead to the party feeling lousy and lack of confidence... after which, over time, the 'drifting phrase' would begun... thus leading to the common factors of communication breakdown and lack of understanding towards each other.

So how so to overcome the problem? STOP FEELING BAD, feel LOVE instead. There isn't any standards when it comes to loving each other. Sometimes, what you feel should be the best for your partner, may not be the case in the other party's eyes. And similarly, it can mean the other way round too. Thus, rules can be bent in a relationship...

I've seen friends giving up time, money, effort, smoking, bad habits for the sake of the other party. Good for them! Overcoming a bad habit isn't a really easy task. However, with the power of love... there isn't anything stopping to overcome it. However, at the end of the day, just don't crumble back to square 1 when things go array with your love one.

Saying you miss a girl or love a girl or want to be a girl, can be a split second event... Yes, it may not be easy. However, it takes a lot of effort and courage to overcome the fear of rejection by the one you love, to say such words. However, if you fail to say it in time, and starts to regret for that decision... it will take you a lifetime to overcome...

So what are you waiting for... if the girl or boy you like is standing there in front of you, just go ahead to express your love. It may be true love or platonic love, however isn't it better to express your feelings and lifting the burden off your chest?

And to those A-holes, who laugh off when someone express love towards you, you just missed the point of love. You missed the point of how happiness can be created through love. If love is just all about sex and games, well screw you! You'll just live a life going after such items through your meaning of 'love' instead of happiness through the true meaning of 'love'.

I love you, Suicide Partner

I love you, brothers and sisters and kiddies.

I love you, friends!

And I love you, for those who I will meet along the way in my journey on Earth.

Just watched this movie: "Forgetting Sarah Marshall" ... well this guy reminds me of myself during those days. Except for the fact that I didn't have the chance to go Hawaii (which is in USA and not Thailand, WK... haha). I would really just love to go for an island get-away with my marlinne or just a couple of buddies.

I guess as prices continue to raise, it does really limits the choices that people can make in life. Money seems to the major problem these days for humans to go around doing things. You need to travel from East to West, you need to pay for the convenience of taking a transport, be it for cabby, MRT or even drinking your own transport.

Well, went to watched High School Musical 3 yesterday... Like I mentioned to Marlinne... two things popped up in my mind during the show.

1. Gangshow... I really, had to agree with R.Bat about this... but it's the most simple and feasible idea to play around with... unless we add in more items like stomp the yard and stuff... I like those white mask from Step up 2: The streets... we can like form a gang and competed with others. Ultra cool!

2. I thought of how my secondary school like was from Secondary 1 to 5... It was really awesome with some highs and lows around. Where you are so eager to meet up with your friends daily, without getting sick of them. Where you have your buddies as well as God-sisters to accompany. Sometimes, I wish that it didn't really end there and then.

Tomorrow is a holiday!! Yippee... Happy Festival of Light to all my Indian friends! I would really like to try experiencing the celebration with my friends sometimes...

Anyway it's going into the second week of the 'O' levels examinations... I wonder how things are going about now? What are the things going into the minds of the those kids? But whatever it is, have faith... believe in yourself... enjoy the battle and come out victorious.

Sometimes in life, you need pillars of support... especially in different phrases of your life. For example, my mom is my pillar of support... since birth. I have my god-sisters, namely, QY mei mei, Cin mei mei, Yanni mei mei, Amanda jie, Joyce jie, Janessa jie, Dino jie, Minru jie, Yana jie and Sze Jia jie to guide me and support me in different ways in my life. I have buddies like my scouts brothers and sisters. I have Moses! haha and most importantly, I have my Marlinne supporting me here as well.

I do really appreciate God for giving me such a life. I used to think that I would just be a loner... Someone that keeps a low profile and fade away in society. I was looked down upon and the pressure was on me to perform. However, screw those thoughts. Like I told Bernard... Do you enjoy your life now? Yes... Good for you and keep it up. No... and what are you going to do about it?

Be Prepared ... live your life! Dying wouldn't really mean anything... yeah people may sympathize but it's just gonna take a couple of days to get over it. But what matters more is You.You decide how you want to live your life righteously and happily.

I would love to have a island get-away soon... to bintan? to batam? to sentosa? haha sentosa isn't really an island get-away anyway. Cheers people!

Just a few moments ago, marks our 2 month anniversary. Some may say its premature, others claiming that its silly to pursue such calculations... Whatever it is, we survived! haha nah, I'm not going to post up any mushy things for now.

Well, I had a meeting with Wolf, Wisdom Keeper and Wombat a while ago as well. Listening to such meetings really bring about a different light in the terms of moulding future leaders. How do we mould such leaders? How do we provide the missing links to allow the boys and girls to achieve their potential... their ideal stage?

Lots of factors to consider especially the capability of the boys or girls being able to receive and perform to their own standards. It will be an interesting PLTC this year, definitely...

Anyway, some food for thoughts about scouting to me. Perhaps, you may find your own journey of scouting life too.

Scouting isn't really just a CCA. It may sound like a cult or gathering... however it's a fellowship among fellow scouters who share the same passion for adventure, learner's attitude and fun.

Scouting is just a journey for anyone to partake and discover one's self as well as to grow stronger physically, mentality and emotionally. We used to say, scouting teaches a boy to be a man. Why? Simply, by equipping the boys relevant skills in life so as to used them in the future as a man. Simple learning values to communicate with others, to be a leader, to use tools for working things out... etc.

And when anyone comes back to scouting... he or she will be a boy or girl again... regardless of age. Why so? So as to have fun again and to be free to learn and to enjoy yourself without restrictions. :)

Before anyone who decides to take on the journey... think back... who are you and what you want to be? Then from there, take the scouting journey to fill up your missing links as well as to make friends, who will support you and your dreams. If you know who you are and what you would be like in the future... good for you, however it doesn't mean that you cannot take on the journey. It just means that the journey allows you to reinforce your direction as well as to learn new things that might help to build up your path.

Whatever decision made, the choice is yours to take. Some just wanted to learn and enjoy their lives, others would like to excel through scouting. The best part of being in a fellowship in Scouting is to share experiences, thoughts and skills with each other. There isn't any need to be political, and being scare that someone might be a competitor to you. In fact, it would be better if you could benefit others and at the same time benefit for your own growth.

Well, before it gets too naggy (like how Suicide Partner, Chick and Mei mei said)... I better stop for the moment.

Lots of activities coming up. Next up... guess?

Well, I was jogging with my brothers as usual and end up at the usual spot each time to do some stretching... while I was doing my own stretching, I overhead this Chinese couple talking about their lives and family. They are not in a relationship with each other though.

What's so special about mentioning them is the words the male was saying about? Wanting to prove that he is able to do things and make it big in the World without the help of his parents... Wanting to break away from his parents and live his own life...

I do admire his sense of Independence... however, I would really like to wake his blardy idea on trying to forget the fundamental and basic of loving his family. Each person has his or her own way of loving. Some would go up to their parents and hug them and say "I love you"... while others would not really show out their emotions or expression, but just trying their best to make their parents happy... while the worse kind is to hope and pray that their parents never really exist. About that, if your parents didn't exist, would you?

A group of friends were talking about how God place each and everyone of us in a family. Somehow or another, we are born into a family planned.

Well, it has been 2 months already... it's been going good and smooth... perhaps like a dream.

Anyway, 'O' Level examinations had already commence. Good luck to all my brothers, sisters and friends out there who are taking. Don't give up till the last minute of the examinations. It will be over soon as you finish your last lap in your secondary school life!

Cheers!

It's really ironic to see one disable person to laugh at another disable person... I've just saw one of the best comedian ever, Russell Peters. Heard of the phrase: "You go to jail, bad boy" or "Some body's gonna get hurt real bad..." Yeah, those are his favourite phrases...

Well well well... I can't seem to think of what to comment about these days. Perhaps I'm suffering from mental block after trying to satisfy the customer's needs each day by answering their, at times seemingly stupid questions.

Some tips when you buy something:

1. Know what you are buying... do you really need it or do you just want it?

2. Know how the thing would benefit you... who will buy something that will hurt them or cause them pain and suffering?

3. If you don't know what you are getting into... don't get into it or ASK! Don't stupidly buy things and yet when it turns out badly... you start to point fingers as well as blame the whole damn world except yourself.

Well, why am I saying these? Aside from tacky and pushy salesperson or relationship managers or whatever you call them.... the other party to the contract is the person buying it. You don't have to be afraid to say 'No'. Seeing those people who cry out their heart and soul to get their money refunded. Well, it's true that their hard earn money for retirement just went... whoosh away... but to think back, if they haven't really brought it, would they suffer the same fate?

I read a newspaper article about the end of a greedy era. It's true... money makes people greedy. There never seems to be enough of it. Each class of people have a different capability to use their money for something.

So stop yelling and shouting about yourself and crying over spilled milk (not inclusive of melamine) and do something about it. Are you going to spend your days in Hong Lim Park complaining or are you going to work and get back those money?

One reason why protesting in Singapore cannot last despite the government is giving public access to Hong Lim Park to 'discuss' and 'complain' about their lives. Simply, money. A person can use that 1 week at Hong Lim Park to protest for all they care to get the media's or government's attention. However, another person can use the 1 week to work hard and earn money to live better. Imagine you are a student, would you sacrifice your tutorial time to protest for 6 months? Imagine you are a working adult, would you sacrifice your working hours to protest each day? Money talks!

I hate to admit it but protesting these days, ain't the kind of revolutionary means anymore. The government that allows people to live peacefully and being rich, is the one that the people will support. Look at the whole world now, all are racing to be the richest nations of the world...

Ultimately, there would be a day where money, in the form of paper, would no longer exist. I wish that the day money cease to exist... people will start to live their dreams again. As money can allow you to pursue your dreams, but at the same time destroy it.

Dreams... dream big and achieve it well. Dreams

Just a touch... an embrace... a warmth feeling being developed... I guess it's more than sufficient to satisfy.

Haha, well randomly blogging after watching Korean movies... romantic all of a sudden? Nah, it isn't me, she knows it.

Well, it's been a draggy first 2 days of the week. I guess not many people like Mondays and Tuesdays, as the days goes slow and boring. However, from Wednesdays onwards... weekends seems to be nearer and people will be looking forward to it again.

Observations from people:

As one grows older, there should be a balance of child-likeness as well as mature thinking. Don't get me wrong, a primary school kid can be mature in thinking too, at times... but kids being kids are meant to be childish or child-like or else they would be miss out on their childhood.

At times, in life, people are being force to grow up faster as compared to others...This is especially so when a person experiences a life-changing event. Every event occurred for a purpose to discover yourself. Take for an example, during Patrol Leaders Training Camp. Boys and Girls are being trained to be leaders to their younger brothers and sisters. They are being trained or 'forced' to take up responsibility to uphold their role as bigger brothers and sisters to guide and educate the younger ones.

Many would think that with appointment comes power and authority. True in some sense, but like what Peter Parker's Uncle said: "With power comes responsibility..." The greater the power, the heavier the responsibility. Look at this, the president of each country may seem to be enjoying life... but they are not prince or princess awaiting to be served. They are there to serve the country and its people.

Similarly, as you grow older, you will be serving for the next generation and the next one as well... Talk about servant leadership... what is it about?

A leader steps up to control yet allow free-play (not floor-play). If a member in this team does something wrong, he or she never hesitate to correct that person so as to allow him or her to grow even further... restricting the member only results in restrict his or her growth.

Group think... a common problem in many groups or buddies... even if one does wrong, the others, despite knowing it, agrees with the wrong-doer and continue to pretend to live happily ever after. Well, at times, each group does need a devil's advocate. It may not be the same person, however someone who wakes up every one's idea and start to think of solutions that would benefit everyone. At times, we do want to keep that harmonious relationship together, but on the expense of your guilty conscience? What's your take?

Well enough of such daggy talks... some messages for people:

"N" Level students: "It's time to rock and roll and do things that you want... live your dreams.. the exams are over!!"

"O" Level students: "It's time to work hard and shine through the exams... whatever that doesn't kill you, just makes you stronger! However, do your best and be proud of yourself!"

"A" Level students: "Well, poly life is better... haha just kidding! Jia You and shine like a star!"

Kiddies: "Despite that each of you are from different units and culture... you are the next generation of leaders that will be keeping up the tradition of 'family' in Tampines District... Jia You and always try to keep in touch!"

PLTC Team 08: "Well Done so far... keep up with the communication and team bonding. Nothing beats having fun through the process of working together! Since we expect the boys and girls to have fun, shouldn't you guys have fun too?"

Marlinne: "Thank you"

Mei Mei: "Just a few more months and it's another turning point in your life... what do you plan to achieve in life? What is your dream?"

Here's my song of the day... anyone remembered the cartoon on Anastasia?

Enjoy!

It's just wrong... selfishness, self-centred behaviours, lack of understanding and love...

Seeing down and talking about our future seems so far-fetched sometimes... people just love to think of the present instead or maybe even what to do tomorrow. However, how many people, who put their heart and soul, can actually discipline themselves to think far ahead in their life and create their meaning of life on their own?

I was asking Mei Mei earlier... so how are you going to plan your time spent with him? Any idea when you going to get married or settle down? Well, being superstitious as always... she exclaimed that she would only get married at 26 years old (that's old! haha). 6 years... it's not a very long time...

My other sister is planning to get married in 2 years time and what about the rest? I thought of mine... she asked me (due to an article) "do guys only hope to have sex with a girl, have fun with the girl or is seeking a lifelong partner, what's yours?"... Well, ultimately, it's of coz' seeking a lifelong partner. I guess I'm not the type to go around chasing other people's skirts (excluding Scottish guys, just joking!)... It's tiring and being lazy me... I just want to find one that I am comfortable with and enjoy my time with her.

Life's short... it's not going to end anyway... but it can be rather painful if you keep getting lost and going round and round in circles before finding meaning to it. I have lots of plans for myself, I would be willing to give up my studies, my job to experience something that has meaning in my life. I know it's a selfish thought as Asians, we are taught to earn money and pay it back to our family and parents, who brought us up... we are taught to earn money to support our wives... Well, I can do that even till I draw my last breathe, but I can't experience the life I want to live when I'm 70 years old, right?

Jedi, was partially right on advance medication in the World. As more people is getting saved, the more population there is... the World is being over-crowded! As more people got the chance to live longer and better, the more pressure it is for the government to curb the ageing population. As more people get to live their life, somehow, not everyone will be happy. Some may faced difficulty in their lives, or even discrimination...

So am we really solving problems or actually creating more problems... the World is created to be the survival of the fittest... It was never a place of luxury or relaxation... however it's one's mindset that determined whether he or she wants to live a life of dreams or a life of other people's expectation... choose it and live it.

One life, live it! Follow your dreams!!

Have you been so inspired to do something great for yourself or for other people before? I've always looked up to how Wolf and Crab had their brotherly relationship together. Both are able to talk about things, go out together and enjoy scouting together. Despite different views and different ideas, they just hanged out with each other like best friends...

I tried several times to do that with my own brothers (my two blood brothers), however things were kinda difficult as it was of a different age as well as I wouldn't want them to learn the wrong things from me... Anyway my dad always warned me to not teach them wrong things... Well, the only way for me to do so was to distance from them...

Well, that idea was wrong... I started jogging with my brothers slowly... at the same time, opening up to talk about things. It was great, as I know how they feel about things and what they had done... there isn't any shame or whatever so... just lessons to be taught to each other.

Today, was kinda sickly day for me... well, firstly, I had runny nose the whole day... it makes me look as though I had a waterfall flowing from my nostril... Yucks!

After which, I was hungry!! A hungry man is an angry man! It includes sleepy as well...

Then, I learnt about some a-hole commenting about me... well, I don't usually mind people talking about me, be it good or bad... But I guess it was a wrong time, wrong mood kinda thing. But nevertheless, I'm glad things were honest, between me and the 3rd party (excluding the a-hole).

It's gonna be a roller coaster Saturdays from now on... look at the calendar!! It's fully loaded.

Have anyone heard about a verification method to certify you as a virgin?! hhaha interesting...

Anyway for my dearest scouts,

6 more weeks to National Patrol Camp Competition!! Are you ready?!

Hey hey, it's been some long time since I updated by blog due to busy schedule from work!!

Anyway, some updates... I'm still alive!! Woah.... ok lame shit. Well... lack of sleep + too much activities = Highness!

I've met up with Macaw and two other PRIMARY SCHOOL classmates earlier. Well, how rare is it for Singaporeans or even people to meet up with friends that goes way back. Somehow, some got forgotten along the way, however, many are still being remembered for the times we had during primary school.

I remembered those times when some classmates and I ran away from the assembly hall and into the toilet. It wasn't some diarrhoea case, however, we just hated standing and singing towards the stage. So we ended up standing and singing in the toilet facing the mirrors. We actually sang the whole national anthem as well as saying the pledge. One in a life time experience for those who ever in the toilet that day.

I remembered those times when I slept at the back of the class, in a row with my other male classmates, during Chinese classes... while the more studious ones were right in front of the teacher. I don't think I was snoring at that time though. Haha

I remembered those times when I hang out with my Muslim friends more than my Chinese friends, learning and experiencing their culture yet learning how to fight (street-fight). That's where I learnt about gangs too!! Woah

I remembered those times sitting outside the Principle's office for scolding bad languages to my best friend, causing a big hoo-haa in school. It was all due to some stupid game that the boys played during each semester... something like combat skirmish using rubber bands and paper pellets. haha

I remembered those times being called down to my youngest brother class due to his naughtiness... Giving attitude to his form teacher and telling my brother off in front of his classmates. I thought it was cool and brave then... well I guess I still think so. Haha

So many memories... so many people that followed me in life. I hope that I meet them someday. Hopefully not in out red/ blue/ green/ yellow/ purple house shirt though.... anyway we were matching house shirts with regards to remembering our classmates. I guess house shirts ain't a lame thing after all.

Reflecting about one's life involves many aspects... my Uncles Christopher told me that when you hate someone or dislike someone, it is mainly due to hating or disliking something in that person, which reminds you of something you dislike about yourself. I guess it has been partially true. Jesus once said to an adulteress, who was suppose to be stoned to death. He told her accusers that if no one else did wrong or sin, can take the step forward to throw the stones at her. No one did after all (P.S. if you strip a female or male in your mind, it is also considered as adultery)...

Well, similarly, when we judged someone, it reminds us of something ugly that we dislike. However, have you though, if you have the capability to judge others, you must have the capability to prevent that mistake from occurring or having that character in you as well... It's really a hypocrite to say that you dislike something and yet doing it.

Haha and one word of advice from my Uncle to couples... Girls just likes the guy to listen to her... she doesn't need solution or advise (unless she asked), however she just wants the guy to listen and to allow her to let out her excess stress or burden.

Cheers friends! 'N' level is ending, while 'O' level is starting soon. Let your engines begin!