This Saturday night, all hopes are pin on it. It either make it or break it. If it breaks, I'm gonna just start letting go of my hopes. If it makes it, I'll continue to believe it will last for generations to come. Scary shit, right? But, after 2 years of forming this Rover unit, nothing much has progress in terms of brother/ sisterhood, skills advancement, personal development, activities and more. What do we do for these 2 years? Just service, just a few representative going to national meetings to show our faces? What else?

Funny thing when she spoke to me that night. She told me to just go for whoever the girl is and date her out. She told me to not let that girl wait and wait. I don't know what to do, but surely, the message goes out to different people.

Yeap, to the girl that I am starting to like about her. Seems kinda silly to go after a girl, whose heart has someone else in it. But well, I'm in no hurry and not a desperate lover at the moment. If it comes my way, I'll just embrace it tightly.

Another group of people are what I call Brothers. Dating you guys out is like calling a stop to this World. Who doesn't have our own personal life? Who wants to make sacrifices at midnight, to hang out with a group of Brothers?

For me, I do. Not that I do not have a life in me, but because I am willing to sacrifice just a mere fraction of my life, my sleeping time, my precious moments for a Brother. A Brother that long deserves to be investiture along with us. A Brother that contributed as much as anyone of us.

I'm so tired of chasing people. I'm so tired to chasing dreams. I just want to rest. Rest a long long time. What's my dream again?

To lead a simple life with the girl that loves me, somewhere at the corner of the World.