If it ain't making the person you are talking to happy, why continue? Sometimes, I do ask myself this question. Am I doing the right things? Am I doing things that make people happy about themselves?

I don't have a nice smile. I don't have good looks. I don't have the friendly atmosphere around me. And most of all, first impressions are always negative.

Spoke to this girl during the rival matches of the night. Manchester United v.s. Liverpool. Man, I love the way Man Utd score against the Reds. Just splendid. OK ok back to topic.

Ain't it a wonderful thing when you see a message or receive a call from someone special, which brightens your heart and brings a smile to your face? Yeap, there are several special people in my life (especially my beloved god-sisters) that brings a smile to my face, each time we talk to each other. The most naughty and irritating of them all is ... (drum roll ...), you know who you are, need not to say out in public.

Anyway, the point is, at the moment when you need someone to cheer you up, the person is there for you. When you experience a sucky day at work, the person is there for you. When you feel like giving up, the person is there for you. Besides our beloved Father, it can be rather selfish to ask the person to be constantly there for you.

Well, living your life each day, aimlessly, is never a good feeling. The feeling of being lost, being cast-away and being neglected would haunt you day and night. That's what I am feeling each day. There was a time when I would work hard and prove to my family that I am worthy and recognised through my academic results. There was a time when I would work hard and prove to the scouts that I am a leader. There was a time when I would work hard and do my best to make that girl happy. There was a time when I give up my personal life just to fulfill others.

Now the time has come for me to choose the path that I am going to take again. I would where God will lead me to. Honestly, since 2005 till present, I have been telling myself that I need a break. I need to travel overseas, just to break away from the lifestyle of Singapore, for a while. I had a chance for an all expense paid trip to Japan, however I gave that up, as I could not afford to give up my passion and obligations. I, now have a chance for a trip to Dubai, and I am hoping that the coming holidays, I would be able to go and enjoy my time there.

If only I have an island by myself to spent time at. The blue ocean, the sunshine, the palm trees and a hut... sitting on the chair with a cold lemonade in my hand... Sounds like Hawaii to me. :)

Well, time flies, attachment is going to be over soon. Next up on the agenda, schooling and biking. I need a bike urgently... No more squeezing in trains anymore then!