My life is just draining away day by day. So many times had I feel that I am holding onto something that serves no purpose and no hope for me in the end, but there is always this thing in me that tell me to keep holding on. I guess I'm not the sort of person that goes for risky stuff, as I always hold back and wait. Guess that's one part of stupidity of a Fallen Mortal. I read her stuff, I think about it even though I know it no longer concern me. She should have been out of my life, but somehow she is still deeply etched in my mind and heart.
I tried to think if I fall for some other girl, I might be able to forget. However, would it be fair for the other party? What if she decides to return someday? or maybe our path will never cross again? God knows.
From today onwards, friends will not hear my voice literally, as my sore throat got worse after another day out with my buddies. Apparently, some female buddies can't stop singing, so we had another trip to Cash Studio (a recommended place to go and chill and sing from me, now on). We had a fun time as usual, singing, playing guessing games, chatting, and maybe some bonding. Yeap... despite the fact that all of us are already on the verge of knocking out due to the latest project submission.
I saw something that breaks my heart, or maybe soften it as always. I have a dream, a dream to provide a suitable working place for those senior citizens that wants to carry on working instead of staying at home. I don't know how I am going to do it, but if there is an opportunity, I'll go for it. I can't understand why these minority would be laying mats in the middle of the street (walking street) and display items such as tissues packs and some home accessories to sell to earn that few bucks.
I always asked myself, why are their children or even grand-children doing? Are they not doing their part (moral value: filial piety) to their parents? Can they actually bear to see their parents or grand-parents doing this? It's not a shameful thing to see people selling, but it's a shameful thing if you can't even try your best to support your family. You got two hands and two legs and the ability to operate your body properly, so why can't you do anything?
Then, something cross my mind about life cycles. Well, based on the Chinese Calender, one human life cycle is 12 years. 12 years for 12 different mystical animals for each year. I have already passed one cycle and it entirely spent on schooling and studying for the text. No personal experience in life actually. I am on the second phrase of my life cycle, thus, I am still stuck on schooling and studying text. However the difference is that I gained valuable experience through working, scouting and street-life.
I can imagine how my third life cycle is going to be, as I will either be going to schooling and studying text again or into the working society. Then thinking back, I spent about 2 or more life cycles just to find a proper job to work to earn for the family. Where is the time for my personal experience in going out to the World? Maybe not when I am still stuck with so many responsibilities in life.
What a boring life I have indeed as a typical S'porean?!
Well, I'll pray and continue to believe in HIM through grace through faith. Like I told Hippo, good guys normally goes up first, I have a feeling I will be going up there in no time too. I just want to be by HIS side in comfort and peace, without worrying about anything. Worries are the number one starter for stress and condemnation of others and self is the root of all problems today and forever.
To the PLTC kiddies, the course isn't the end, but the beginning of your life as a leader to your unit, district, fellow brothers and sisters. Time to leave your comfort zone of standing by the fence and step up to the calling. You guys had fun during the camp and seminar, but now as you faced your personal challenge of being a leader, never forget that your other brothers and sisters are supporting you hand in hand too. We'll all face this together one way or another, leaving no one behind. This is because we are family in scouting. :)
I tried to think if I fall for some other girl, I might be able to forget. However, would it be fair for the other party? What if she decides to return someday? or maybe our path will never cross again? God knows.
From today onwards, friends will not hear my voice literally, as my sore throat got worse after another day out with my buddies. Apparently, some female buddies can't stop singing, so we had another trip to Cash Studio (a recommended place to go and chill and sing from me, now on). We had a fun time as usual, singing, playing guessing games, chatting, and maybe some bonding. Yeap... despite the fact that all of us are already on the verge of knocking out due to the latest project submission.
I saw something that breaks my heart, or maybe soften it as always. I have a dream, a dream to provide a suitable working place for those senior citizens that wants to carry on working instead of staying at home. I don't know how I am going to do it, but if there is an opportunity, I'll go for it. I can't understand why these minority would be laying mats in the middle of the street (walking street) and display items such as tissues packs and some home accessories to sell to earn that few bucks.
I always asked myself, why are their children or even grand-children doing? Are they not doing their part (moral value: filial piety) to their parents? Can they actually bear to see their parents or grand-parents doing this? It's not a shameful thing to see people selling, but it's a shameful thing if you can't even try your best to support your family. You got two hands and two legs and the ability to operate your body properly, so why can't you do anything?
Then, something cross my mind about life cycles. Well, based on the Chinese Calender, one human life cycle is 12 years. 12 years for 12 different mystical animals for each year. I have already passed one cycle and it entirely spent on schooling and studying for the text. No personal experience in life actually. I am on the second phrase of my life cycle, thus, I am still stuck on schooling and studying text. However the difference is that I gained valuable experience through working, scouting and street-life.
I can imagine how my third life cycle is going to be, as I will either be going to schooling and studying text again or into the working society. Then thinking back, I spent about 2 or more life cycles just to find a proper job to work to earn for the family. Where is the time for my personal experience in going out to the World? Maybe not when I am still stuck with so many responsibilities in life.
What a boring life I have indeed as a typical S'porean?!
Well, I'll pray and continue to believe in HIM through grace through faith. Like I told Hippo, good guys normally goes up first, I have a feeling I will be going up there in no time too. I just want to be by HIS side in comfort and peace, without worrying about anything. Worries are the number one starter for stress and condemnation of others and self is the root of all problems today and forever.
To the PLTC kiddies, the course isn't the end, but the beginning of your life as a leader to your unit, district, fellow brothers and sisters. Time to leave your comfort zone of standing by the fence and step up to the calling. You guys had fun during the camp and seminar, but now as you faced your personal challenge of being a leader, never forget that your other brothers and sisters are supporting you hand in hand too. We'll all face this together one way or another, leaving no one behind. This is because we are family in scouting. :)
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