Exams are over and I am having lots of faith and feeling abundance of grace in the Lord. Unbelievably, I manage to survive through the exam week with work, scouts, outings and a minimum amount of studying.

Okay, enough about studying for now. Anyway, during these moments that I was studying, I had a song playing in my mind that kept me thinking about myself and those around me. Well, this song is a favourite for scouts and especially girl guides. The title is "Linger". Most people would have heard it during campfires and sing-a-long sessions, but anyway this is the lyrics, which will relate to the content of the blog entry.

Um-hmm I want to linger here

Um-hmm a little longer here

Um-hmm I want to linger here with you

Um-hmm its such a perfect night

Um-hmm it doesn't seem quite right

Um-hmm that it should be my last with you

Um-hmm when come September

Um-hmm I will remember

Um-hmm our camping days and friendships true

Um-hmm and as the years go by

Um-hmm I'll think of you and sigh
Um-hmm its just good night and not good bye

Well, there were several life-changing events that people will definitely experience one way or another. However, stubborn as most people who knows me clearly, I tend to stick very much to my principles as well as my lifestyle. This is especially so if it got to do with relationship with others. I tend to linger at a spot in life for a very long time before I get up and move again.

Well, another point that I have been sharing with some brothers and sister of mine, was the stages in people's lives. On my assumption, people tend to linger at one stage in life before moving on to another. Some will have little change in them, while others will have drastic change in them. Close friends will find it obvious, while others will just look at them as nothing much.

Thus far, I have seen several people close to me having such drastic change that I can't understand why and how come to such an extent. Well, naming a few would be Heron, Macaw, Turtle, Bat, and the self-proclaim "Thirsty Hippo". Is it the cause of money that influence their lives so much? Is it the change in priorities that influence their lives so much? Is it the change in attitude and character towards life that influence their lives so much? I seriously have no clue. Well, some may tell me that I lack ambition and the drive to go for greater things. But seriously, I don't really care about much stuff in my life right now. I'm living my life as an aim to support these so-called brothers and sisters in my life to do greater things. That gives me the satisfaction rather than my own achievements.

I asked a friend recently. What is the point to see you achieve so much in life, such that your friends and family are left behind? What is the point to sacrifice your relationship with others that you once or at least call friends, when you don't share what you are achieving for? Is there not a way for people to help one another to achieve things together?

Well, I know you can't please every soul you meet, but at least offering a helping hand as much as possible... that's my principle. Ultimately, if given the choice again to give up my people for a greater achievement in life, I would still reject it through compromising methods.

It's time for me to move on as well in life, as these friends do. However, as much as I move, I would still somewhat linger around, to be there for them if they need help one way or another. After all, without these people, I wouldn't be who I am today. God has place them in my life, and they don't get to just come and go as easily as those strangers I will meet on the streets.

As petals of the black rose starts to peels and drops, how much long does it take for it to pass away? So much change that I can't recognise who you are again. Is that it?

I'm going to step out of my comfort zone and do 'unnatural' things that is going to be different from what I do normally. And with this step forward, I'll go on with just faith in those people I trust in. Whether they do succeed or fail, is really up to their choice now.

Let's break away now from the norms, but not forgetting the principles and morals that make us who we are.