I really love to watch the movie "Coyote Ugly" whereby this Jersey girl dreamt big and achieve big against all odds. Well... she found her life through music, and from there, started an adventure that would turn her life around. Let me guess, I watched it about more than 10 times since young. It's not only about the girls but also about the music and the meaning behind the movie...

Here's one of the clips (not exact but the song is real) about the song "But I do love you" by LeAnn Rimes.

Somehow, as humans, we tend to have feelings to care for other people and to keep them happy and going on in life. It's difficult to satisfy everyone you know, but at least you tried to make their day better somehow or another.

I understand the sickening feeling when you tried to make someone happy, however in turn you angered the person and causes hurt and pain. It sucks, right? But shit happens, and nevertheless despite the approach being wrong, you have the intention to make things better for others. I guess that matters more...

There's so many to do... so many to think about in life. But how are we going to prioritise and make our lives better each day?

I recently saw the entire episode of the Presidential Debate by McCain and Obama. Well I fell asleep more than once. I guess it was because they are boring people, but it was due to my tiredness from work. However, it's really interesting to hear their comments and see how they debate against each other.

In my opinion, it wasn't really a debate. It's more like a promotion of themselves to the World, of their plans and campaign. I wouldn't deny that their plans are for the betterment of the country, yet I would say that they are really too conservative in their expression that I felt they are just reading of the "model answer from a textbook".

Questions over the financial budget plan by the White House, decisions made over Iraq, views on Russia and 9/11... it is really current affairs, yet they do take precautionary steps to avoid saying anything that would express how they feel. It's really just touch and go... Worse of all, they ain't debating! They are just telling Jim how they feel, there isn't any rebuttal or any such notion... woah!! haha, well I love to see people debating their points across... it makes you think how they think and feel how they feel.

Scouting feels... it takes more than hard skills to be a good scout and leader.

Well, it's going to be Monday blues again in a couple of minutes... Yawn!!

It was one hell of a week ever since the kick-off of the financial turmoil happening around the World. Be it a crisis or a temporary passover... it sure did shook the entire World. I guess the World is being driven by money. That's what some people say, "Money makes the World goes round."

Some people do things voluntarily, as they find joy from there. Others do things for the sake of fame, money or status, as they find excitement and satisfaction from there. There was one wise man saying this before, "The richest man can be poor in his heart, however the poorest man can be rich in his hear." Well, what does it mean?

I guess, without finding your purpose and happiness in life, you'll just be a poor man in your heart. A man without any riches that could fill your heart to be happy. Does money really makes you feel happy? Yeah, it does temporarily. But how long can it last?

Things change, people change. I could say, if you ask anyone about scouts these days, they would think it as an insignificant CCA that brings in no money nor enjoyment. However, truly, I can say that scouting is the only CCA that will lead you the right way and to find your destiny in life, provided with the proper guidance and the mixture of the person's learning attitude.

As Marlinne was writing in her blog about looking back at God. I guess she was right... sometimes people just do take advantage of God and only seek him while they are in need. I'm like that too, as I'm just a mere human. Jesus said, come you heavily laden people... I guess burdening yourself too much isn't what God wants you to be.

How to live your life to the maximum or what others would say to invest in your life meaningfully? I had this ambition when I was young... to live a life that when I die, I will be remembered by people for generations after generations. However, as time goes by... I guess that ambition remained except for a twist whereby I will be remembered by people in their hearts for the things that I did to benefit them in their lives.

Do you want to live your life doing so many things but accomplishing nothing in the end... or doing things that allow you to accomplish something in your life that you can be proud of?

Time passes quickly when you started to work and focus on your life. That's what Kelly told me that day. She was right. Some what as we look back into our lives, it felt as though we had just completed our PSLE going into secondary school, or completing our 'N' or 'O' levels going into pre-university.

It felt as though time never really stops for anyone... and it really never stop. As the old ages and the birth of young ones. Have anyone ever wonder what they are meant to do in life so as to live a fruitful and meaningful life?

I was thinking of this topic for the past few days or perhaps on and off whenever I see them. Well, have you ever notice the elderly or senior citizens going around in rags and pieces to collect cans and bottles that we had drank finish? to sell packets of tissue papers to people in the hawker centres, where hundreds of people normally rejecting their offer?

I can't say that I'm a Saint to buy all their packets, however at times I just offer. I always wonder why? Why do they do this when they still have the strength and experience to find other jobs that will give them a better pay? Why do they do this when they should be resting and enjoying their retirement, where's their children?

My dad told me once, nothing in the future is certain. Kids saying that they will care for their parents for life and not put them into the old folks home... however as time passes by... things changes... it's either the parents moving into the home themselves, or their children 'dumping' them there.

It hurts to see those older people struggling with their lives, and living their days like that. I would just look at them and wonder, if I have the ability to help them... what should I do? I had this ambition, to open a bar and to create a job for these people... a job that allows them to work and earn their keep. To do a meaningful job that makes them happy too. I wonder if it's just a utopia, but one day, I'll do my best to fulfill it and to realise it.

Well, here's the song of the day... by my favourite and respected and adored actor/ singer (drum-roll please)... Mr. Andy Lau!! Woah! and an unknown lady named Sharon Cuneta and an extra named Jim Brickman. Haha just kidding. They make a team to create such a song.

I'm surprise Andy Lau sings english songs.Well... he's a respectable man! Enjoy, folks!

Here's another history I dug up during yesterday's search. I guess it was written during my Secondary 2 days where poems and riddles were common during English Classes.

Title: Sweetest Dream

As I drift into a land,

A faraway and distant land.

My feelings and emotions,

Are unexplainable and confused.

Then I see this girl, this happy girl

She is young, happy and seems to have fun.

Then I ask myself this question,

Who is this girl and where is she from?

My heart starts to beat and race,

I am no longer lonely and confused.

Then a smile is on my face,

and I ask myself what should I ask her?

I start walking towards her,

keep asking myself how I am going to express myself?

But I am pulled back by a force,

and awake on my bed smiling.

Well, it may not make any sense, however, I guess that's how I felt about things during those days... wishing for someone to stand-by me and seeing people being happy.

I remember this girl named Wang Pei, I don't know if many would remember her... however she has been on the back of my mind as a motivator when it comes to facing difficulty especially in studies. Well, she was an outstanding student from China, who put in a lot of effort to be in the top 5 percent during my Secondary 1 and 2 life. However, along the way, I guess she disappeared from the school. But nevertheless, she was a motivator I selected to put in my best effort to work hard during those days.

My competitor was, always will be I guess, my buddy Puffer fish. Well, we have known each other since Secondary 1, where she had that short hair style... till she became a 'beauty' now. (cough cough)... without her, I guess there isn't any fun in studying and helping each other to study in school... Thanks girl! Even though you are in Australia now, I will still drop a msg or two to check on you!

Btw, I must really bitch about this matter... Minister Mentor Mr. Lee was mentioning about a Gracious Singapore, I guess he was right after all... I doubt that Singapore would really become a gracious society in for a long time. Isn't a government body or some chamber of commerce or banks or service related companies or business, should keep up with a gracious image... be it meeting physically or virtually? Whoever that bitch that bad-mouth about me over the phone... what comes around goes around... you curse the creation and son of God, you will be cursed as well! Argh! Freaking lady!

1 month ago... our exams ended. We took a trip down to the floating platform (thanks to your dear... we had a long ride from school till suntec city - butt hurts! haha). We ate at Fin by Blue Lobster Seafood Cafe. After which, we squeezed with the crazy hordes of people (excluding us that are not crazy but sane enough) to watch the fire works display.

I can still remember that day, despite me having STM recently... haha well that was 1 month ago. Today, we were back at suntec city, at a different time, at a different place, with a different atmosphere and feeling between us. Well... I'm happy that's all I can say (others are too mushy to say or else Bat would get jealous! haha).

Well, I was digging some pictures out, taking a look at puffer fish and mei mei's pictures during their secondary school days. Perhaps I should post them up? haha. Well, what I got was a rap created by my classmates during our Secondary 5 life. Here's how it goes, if some remembered that the 5 brave souls, stood up on the stage to sing it out... scare the hell out of me!

Representing 5N1

We be standing here in front of everyone

We're gonna give you rhymes instead of none

So sit back, relax and have some fun

From R, E to SPECT

Respect is our class VALUE

So what's up with the whole respect thingy

That's where you'll soon know and what its gonna be

Well teacher, I have a question to made

Is it cool to be rude?

Or what if you're being dared if you could

Just to be called a cool dude

And if you're being rude

Does that mean you're up to no good

And what about the word respect

Is that what teachers do expect?

So what is being called respect?

Chorus:

R E S PECT

That is our class VALUE x2

First up, we should respect all teachers

Cause they teach us

And they ain't no preachers

They put in a lot of effort in teaching us

Not forgetting worksheets prepared for us

And when you're sick, when you're ill, they would care for us

They will make sure we take their test and pass

And make sure all of us finish our task

R E S PECT!!

Chorus

Next up, respect the school rule

Make sure you obey it coz you're not a fool

Be aware

That discipline teachers are everywhere

So you must be careful and take notice of what you wear

It has been stated that you must obey the regulation

Or else you will be punish like going for detention

So R E SPECT!!

Chorus

Last but not least

Respect your friends and classmates please

Although sometimes you're being disturbed or teased

Remember they're like roti john cheese without cheese

Coz when you hurt them your friendship is at risk

So please!!

R E SPECT!!

Chorus

Well, tributes to class 5N1 of graduating batch 2005! As well as credits going to Raziz (our rapper and writer and coordinator)... as well as rappers Willy T-Joe (my brudder!), Hafiz (my malay twin), Kenedict (my talking buddy) and me (surprise?!) haha.

We had fun practicing and singing out loud. Our pride and joy for our class that stuck together for 3 years since 2003. Some of which was even longer... I'm glad I met you guys, as it had added colours in my life.

I love you guys!

Have you ever received a love note from someone in your life before? A note that signifies his or her love towards you or perhaps a hint that says that he or she wants to be with you. Well, I guess such things are really of the past whereby couples or lovers would write love notes to each other (where the time of technology was cease to exist)...

Here's a surprise to me:



It's not like I'm showing off or anything... but it's really sweet sometimes to see someone doing this for you.

Well, good times are always shorter as compared to bad times. A moment of good times could whizz through your life in an instant, however a moment of bad times seems to take a million years (exaggerating) to go through your life.

Change is everywhere around us... the environment is changing, despite environmentalist saying that the World would recover by when and how, seriously, the World would never recover to its original state as long as there is over-population, over-use of machinery, over-use of chemicals and such. It's not like I'm condemning anyone or thing, but to make the World a 'better' place, some might say as such, we need to constantly improve our standard of living and life... that's in contrast to saving the World... Perhaps, save the cheerleader, save the World? (Ok, lame joke)

Normally, in a relationship (be it BGR or friendship), there is bound to be someone changing and someone causing the change. It really depends. I used to feel that I should change someone whenever I am in a relationship, I guess this time round, someone is changing me inside out to be a better person. Actually, I'm really grateful to have the people I know around me now... people that watches me grow stronger each day and people who rely on me to grow too.

I thank the Lord for giving such a life ...For I am righteous to God through Christ Jesus! And no amount of sin can stop me, as I'm cleanse by the Blood of the Lamb everlasting.

Here's something for my dancing brother, Macaw...
"Murder on the Dancefloor" By Sophie Ellis Bextor (ain't she cute?) haha

Sleep... is the definition of a natural state of bodily rest observed throughout the kingdom of God's creation.

Well, the lack of sleep could really be disastrous to many people, especially boys and girls, as the harms the body and soul. The body has been frequently termed as the Temple for the Holy Spirit by the Christians, while the Islamic beliefs that the body is 'loan' for the soul to live in as humans to walk on this Earth.

Regardless of the beliefs and thoughts, the body functions such like an battery that needs to be re-charged over and over again to gain energy, strength and thoughts in mind. Well, people always complained that due to the lack of sleep, they are feeling grumpy and such... tempers would flare and words spoken will be without much thoughts.

I do agree...

I could really imagine how the World leading bankers and financial analyst scramble to think of solutions to save the financial world from falling into a crisis... After the declaration by Lehman to file for bankruptcy as well as the takeover of Merrill by the Bank of America, what lies ahead in the future?

Some said that it would be the beginning of another Great Depression... Whoever didn't study history, it would be interesting to start reading now about the Great Depression that sunk the whole world and the very reason that World War happened.

Imagine living today happily, with money to spent on the items you want freely, and tomorrow, the money became worthless overnight and prices began to soar as much as $100,000 for a piece of bread and as the time passes by, the price of bread would raise by multiples of 10s instead of $0.10.

What would happen to the price of your favourite I-phone? From the price of about $1,000 to the price of about $100 million? It may seem fictitious, however relating back to the Great Depression that impacted Germany and many other countries... nothing seems fake anymore.

As uncertainty looms over Goldman and AIG, I wonder how many other financial institutions would fall victim to the vicious cycle of greed in money making. It's really interesting to see people panicking around when their money goes 'poof' overnight and they'll be scrambling around to save whatever they can... I not laughing or pitying them, its a lesson to be learnt, I guess.

A brother spoke to me today about Morals. The definition of morals, from Dictionary.com, states that it pertains to or concerned with the principles or rules of right conduct or the distinction between right and wrong.

Do everyone has moral(s) in their lives? I will say YES! Everyone have morals in their lives one way or another. However, depending on the perception of the definition of morals in their lives, people believe in different things and move in different directions.

The very same set of morals will mould the person into the direction of his or her life that he or she would be heading. As a senior or anyone around, wouldn't it be great to see a junior or the next generation growing with moral values that would lead the World to be a better place to live in?

Each generation has passed on, thinking and feeling the same. But how much has the World change and how much has it improved or has it actually became a worse place to live in? Imagine picking up calls daily, people taking advantage of the virtual effect and started to yell over the phone to one another.

Whatever it is, I guess love would just brings around neutralisation to other negative effects in the World. I do feel fortunate to have a girlfriend that loves me, brothers that loves me, family that loves me and friends that loves me... and similarly, I would like to love back these people even though it may not be expressly shown.

It doesn't take much effort to get something for the one you care for to see that smile on the face. How about another Hershey Sundae Pie? Loves...

Lots of thoughts went through my mind as my mind ponder about love, scouting and personal growth. There's so many things to do yet so little resources to make do with.

Well, for today... here's a little story to share:

As the lady sat at the station waiting for her 'love' to come and fetch her and bring her away, she waited with doubts in her head. She was feeling confused about her love for the one she was being with or the one that she hoped to be with.

As her 'love' finally, arrived, she walked off angrily for making her wait anxiously for him. He thought that they would be able to have a relax and enjoyable evening together, however, things took a turn as she walked further and further away.

As he ran after her to hold her hands and asked her what had happened... she refused to say and just wants to walk away. He knew that something was wrong, yet not knowing what it was. He thought that the best way was to let her go on her own as she wishes, yet he was also worried for her safety and well-being. As he walked slowly to catch the last bus, he wondered hard and felt that he had not done what a boyfriend, should be doing. He didn't want her to know that he was following her back to ensure she reaches home safety.

Thus, he ran... he ran fast and hard till he saw her from a distance. He was panting and huffing away as he tried to cool down. He was angry too, angry of himself for making that decision to let her go on her own... yet knowing that it was the only way.

Well, in life, there is always someone that will love over us, no matter where we go. Ultimately, there is God and his angels. However, on Earth, God had placed people around us to take care and guide us and to look after us wherever we go. It's more or less pre-destined. However, whether we had found that person, or not... it's just fate.

Some of you might felt that the boy is being silly for running after her, while others felt that he did the right thing. Whatever the outcome is... he will definitely continue to look out for her.

Some warm messages to some brothers and sisters:

Moses - Take care brother as you are going into NS soon. We're brothers from different mothers! (and fathers too!) haha

Gerald - Take care buddy as you are also going into NS soon. Hi to your family especially your grandma.

Aeti - Good Luck for your 'O' Level examination preparations and the actual thing. Our soccer match will take place after the examinations ba. Perhaps a cage match?

Airpork Jie - Well, take good care of Pearline and yourself. If you need anything, I'm also here for you, just like how I am to mei mei.

Euodia - Heya... hello to you back. Good Luck for your 'O' Level examinations as well. And be more mature eh. haha just teasing!

Jonne - Jia You and have faith in your works. There's an exciting path in front of you to learn and development your own skills. Cheers! and take good care of the Tooth Fairy eh.

Ms Panda - Chingay girl... oops. Holiday now right? Keep up on your dreams and visions! You can do it!

Beca - Long time since I heard about you... let's go out for dinner some time with the rest of the gang.

Low Man Ling - Wahaha your blog has all the pictures of your 'body' ... stop cam-whoring in the wardrobe with those dress and shirts ba! Buy them! :) Cheers

Stingray - Thank you brother for taking time off to make a trip down to the Land of the Stags, so as to guide the young ones in Scouting. We will definitely meet again soon!

Ting Zhen - Good luck for your 'O' Level preparation too! Smiles :)

Pufferfish - Well, what can I say? We all miss you and would hope you come back to Singapore soon. :) Let's continue to keep in contact, though it will be kinda expensive to message from Singapore to Melbourne haha... but heck it. :)

That's all for now... more to come to other people soon.

As we take one step forward, we will hold our hands and move together in the same direction.

Dreams... it's good to have a dream... a dream that keeps you motivated to move on in life. As I was having lunch with Bel and Mel, I saw Bel reading this book which was very familiar to me. It titled: "The Purpose-Driven Life" by Rick Warren. Well, why I said familiar as I did read through the book once, however, it seems so foreign to me now.

The purpose of life... many questions were posted by many man on Earth. The wise one asked, the silly one asked, the rich one asked, the poor one asked... Who am I? Am I just another human on Earth that lives till I die? What am I suppose to do to live my life as it meant to be?

So many questions, yet life is being created so mysteriously. Is our name given to us, just a name to be called? Or is there a greater value than just our name, status, looks and ability in life? ... Weird, as people looked everywhere to find it. Isn't it time to ask, have I done my best to do things to my best of my ability that God gave in life?

Have you were wondered, why do you have some traits in your character that others do not have? Perhaps, being more open-minded, being more out-spoken, being more creative and such... or perhaps, when you're in love, you are able to bring out better qualities in yourself?

Fantasy... Wouldn't everyone wish or hope to live in one? Where guys become knights in shining amour and ladies become princesses in castles and dragons and such... sounds like Shriek to me though. However, isn't that just a fantasy that every human would yearn to experience in life?

Isn't it just a fantasy to be in love with the girl of my dream (for guys) or guy of my dream (for girls)?

A question was posted to Wei Xiao Bao by one of his wives (7 wives), "Would your heart be able to love so many people?" Well, I would say yes for my case. I may only have one heart, but it's love can be spread to not only to my dear suicide partner... but also to my family members, my relatives, my sisters, brothers, juniors, friends and even strangers. There isn't any limit nor boundaries in love... just you who will make the decision to do so.

Some message to people around me:

Suicide Partner:
"Be yourself and stay happy"

Toothfairy a.k.a. Wisdom Keeper:
"Jia you in your pursuit of your dreams and desire to be a true scouter"

Raging Bat:
"Jia you in your 'O' levels examination! Believe in yourself and stay focus. Remember focus and relax eh"

Wombat:
"Jia you in your pursuit in your love"

Waiman:
"Jia you in your "N' levels examination! Don't slack already lah... Let's have donut party on Saturday!!"

Buddy:
"It's good to see you in love again. Jia you! and Smile Always"

Sunshine:
"Jia you in your pursuit to find meaning in your life and in your new direction in your Job."

Mei mei:
"What can I say... hmmm silly monkey?? haha you're the best!!"

Cottontail:
"Everything happens for a reason, each time a step forward is taken, more would follow... Jia you and take good care of your own self eh!"

Crab:
"Welcome back to Singapore, hope you enjoyed your stay in China!!"

Basil:
"Learn the ways of a gentleman... and grow as one. In scouting, use the skills you have attain to make your life more interesting as before :)"

Russian Bear:
"There'll be one that will be loving you, just that you do not know... I hope it isn't a guy though, haha jokes aside... you'll meet one soon"

Talking Macaw:
"I'm glad you have found a direction in life that your hope to pursuit. Fight with Honour, Win with Pride, Brothers for Life eh!"

Stefy:
"Well, erm... what can I say. Haha good luck to you for your 'O' levels examination and jia you in your pursuit of your love life? haha just enjoy life girl!!"

ok... more to come when I see you people around.

Cheers and Good night and Good Bye

One hell of a week for me, that's what I could say. It's definitely different when you are working as an intern as compared to as a part-time staff. I could really feel how those guys at fishy when they are there on attachment.

Well, whatever it is, it's a learning opportunity for me to expand my knowledge as well as to enjoy myself. Like what Wolf said, "Instead of waking up each morning and saying: "What's there for me to work today", why not change it to "What's there for me to enjoy today"?" ... wouldn't it be better?

A hand takes two hands to clap, a couple takes two person to establish and be as one. Honeymoon period, normally, are very sweet and envious by many. However, the real challenge only comes after the honeymoon period and when two person have to love each other for their differences as well as to move forward in the relationship; be it with a common interest, goal or other matters.

I've been watching this drama series called "Duke of Mount Deer (2000)". Well, it's about this guy named "Wei XiaoBao" who from a lowly background person, became someone very influential with the Emperor as well as his Rebels. Haha but the interesting part of which, is his 7 wives.

It's an old show, but well... it's also entertaining to watch such shows at times.

I guess like is just going to be a routine of wake up, go work, eat, go home and sleep again and again. I need to add some more spice in my life. I need inspiration to blog and to tell the World how I feel.

Political mayhem in Thailand and Malaysia... Riots, fights, declaration of state of emergency... what's happening?

Social problems, between different ethnic groups...

Economic problems in the World Wide arena, whereby banks, financial institutions, governments and everyone plays an effort to balance the trade and surviving any crisis.

So many problems each day whereby people have to face... However, if the problem doesn't kill you, it will only make you stronger and tougher for other things. I guess, that's what being successful is being about. To be successful in surviving each problem, each difficulty or crisis.

A scout whistles and smiles upon each difficulty he or she faces. Let's smile more often brothers and sisters.

Have you been on a trip out of your home and whatever you see are just flashes of images out of the car window? The things that you see seems to have gone past in a flash that you never really did settle for one moment to admire it...

Imagine sitting on a cable car, that moves so fast, that you didn't even get a chance to have a glimpse of the sun setting or the time spend with the ones in the car as well.

Life has been zooming past the eyes, we see everyday. The kinda of relationship some took, seems to have jumped leaps and bounds... so fast... so quickly, that the couple failed to enjoy the time spend together... the quality time spent together.

Some times, people just take things for granted that maybe in the future, we can try it again... however, in the future, there isn't any more chance to do so. Some parents forces their kids to grow in leaps and bound and away to maturity... however, when you ask them about the childhood the kids experience, what did they really do?

It's like a dream now, never before felt so secure and calm... yet fearful that things will snowball. It's like a walk in the park, to immerse in the environment, in the nature and admire the beauty of it.

Choices, that's what humans had to take each day. To do or not to do, to try or not to try. However, how many good choices or bad choices are there? I say there isn't any good nor is there any bad. Ultimately, you're the one who made it and you're the one who have to stand by it. During the knights era, man who dishonour his words, would be discredited and worthless to even be alive... today, man who dishonour his words, seems to be like a daily affair. Where has the code of honour been to? Just to protect your own arse, you live a life of an undignified person?

Hating someone is a very tiring affair. Forgive and forget, seems like a monk's favourite phrase, however, how many times do we actually forgive and forget... or is it forgive and never forget till the time comes for revenge? Perhaps one day, when people start to realise that hating is just another vicious cycle that laden their souls... they'll continue to live a life of a prisoner, who is caged in his own heart of hatred.

Dear brothers and sisters, let us bring smiles that makes happiness. Let's revolutionize and make this world a better place. Let's bring it on, with the A-C-D-C Dance Crew!!