Have you ever wonder how it is like sitting in a restaurant and staring out of the window?

A lady riding on a skate scooter went by, a couple of people loitering around and cars zooming by as birds flew by too. The environment in the restaurant covers the sound of the outside with its atmosphere. It was a day out with mei mei and her twin, Sunshine.

Well, it has been sometime since I had a feast out till I nearly puke. That day was just a surprise day of shopping. However, there weren't clothes or gifts to shop around for, the main agenda was to shop for food to eat. I wouldn't say its junk food as people do enjoy eating them.

So many things had change since the last time we met... Some grew, some shrink. Some became so pre-occupied in life that time for their friends and love ones were merely non-existent in their lives. She asked, how do you know if you treasure someone or something very much?

I don't know. My reply was simply, where the person dies, and you think back the times you had with him or her... perhaps then, will you know how precious he or she is to you. Or similarly, if you have lost something, only through that experience, will you know how important that item is, in your life.

Pressure, stress, expectation to excel and ambition, it comes as a package to make a person either to drive crazy or to drive on in life. There is no stopping on how the person will react to these situations. Some may crack down, some just a plain persistent in doing it their ways or even some just glide through it with a smile on the face. Different people have different worries. Different people have different objectives in life.

For me, its just to live simply. I dreamt of being a star, I dreamt of being the President once, I even dreamt of having piles and piles of money to spend. However, when I wake up and face reality... I just smile and live by it. Its not that I am a bum or sort of. I'm just taking life easily.

When my time is up, I have to go.... no one is gonna tell God to stop and let me live on. Ashes to ashes, dust to dust... people come and go. Whether there is incarnation or resurrection in life... we will not know until we experience it. The best way to feel confident in ourselves is through experience. Only then will we know what to expect and how to deal with it.

Without the experience, we will have to live by uncertainty. Ever heard of 'O' Level graduates teasing those who are about to take their major exams, such as: "What is 'O' Level? What are exams?" Some may think, why do they say that... simple reason. They have been through it and survive it. Surviving 'O' Level isn't really just about the result slip that you will receive at the end of the day. But having to live through it... at least you didn't commit or even attempted suicide successfully for it, that's what I meant. If you do, look back and feel a little foolish if you really did what you want to do then.

Well, at the end of each day. Do we really think about how are we going to live life tomorrow? Do we really think about what happened in the day that we survived through this Earth?

I guess... many just live by and when the time you look back into such things... perhaps you are already sitting down telling stories after stories to your grandchildren or just thinking as you watch the last sunrise of your life.