Confession is always a hard thing to do. No matter how strong the person is, whenever it's time to confess a secret to another person, it would require great effort and courage to do so. I've to really appreciate those who confess to me in their secrets as well as in allowing me to know my weaknesses in life.
There's a lot of areas that I felt that I need to improve on, personally. One of the major areas is communication with others. Despite that I'm able to be tactful, to a certain extent, during communication, however... in terms of maintaining conversations and relationship through communication is lacking. Hmmm... I'll think about the other areas when the time comes. At the moment, just focus and relax and take things as it comes.
Cottontail has been complaining about me being too relax and heck-care about my life. Is it so? I don't know. Perhaps, there's a greater destiny out there for me, that has yet to be explored or tapped upon. Sounds like 'Wanted" ... hehe ... I have dream of forming or joining a fraternity. Thus, perhaps... White Stag Scouts Troop will be the fraternity to each generation of scouts that wore the troop badge with pride and honour.
Talking about pride and honour... where's the pride and honour of being a scout in an international organization? What has the promise and law becomes to you after you become a tenderfoot, scout, senior scout, venture, rover or leader? Haiz, time has change many things, even the responsibility of as scout, fun and carefree of a scout's life.
Love... I asked God yesterday after sending suicide partner back. Am I really ready for a relationship with anyone now? Be it that little girl or so... Or is there something that has not been done yet and needs to be done now? Thus, I asked Him to give me an answer, a sign or whatever it is to clarify this matter.
The ultimate fear next to rejection, perhaps is breaking someone's heart. Maybe it's due to that sick feeling that I felt before many times... therefore, I wouldn't want anyone to feel that because of me. I'm more of a Heart-Breaking Kid, as compared to a Heart-Breaker Kid. It's a major difference.
There's a time and place for everything. It's time to do what we should do in life first. Maybe what Turtle said maybe true, to a certain extent... I'm just finding an excuse to stop loving, yet wants to continue to love. I guess, I have more or less killed that feeling of love again and again, each time it rose up. I'm a stubborn fish, I guess.
Yawn... time to rest perhaps when school is over altogether.
To do my best to God, to the country, to other people and to self.
There's a lot of areas that I felt that I need to improve on, personally. One of the major areas is communication with others. Despite that I'm able to be tactful, to a certain extent, during communication, however... in terms of maintaining conversations and relationship through communication is lacking. Hmmm... I'll think about the other areas when the time comes. At the moment, just focus and relax and take things as it comes.
Cottontail has been complaining about me being too relax and heck-care about my life. Is it so? I don't know. Perhaps, there's a greater destiny out there for me, that has yet to be explored or tapped upon. Sounds like 'Wanted" ... hehe ... I have dream of forming or joining a fraternity. Thus, perhaps... White Stag Scouts Troop will be the fraternity to each generation of scouts that wore the troop badge with pride and honour.
Talking about pride and honour... where's the pride and honour of being a scout in an international organization? What has the promise and law becomes to you after you become a tenderfoot, scout, senior scout, venture, rover or leader? Haiz, time has change many things, even the responsibility of as scout, fun and carefree of a scout's life.
Love... I asked God yesterday after sending suicide partner back. Am I really ready for a relationship with anyone now? Be it that little girl or so... Or is there something that has not been done yet and needs to be done now? Thus, I asked Him to give me an answer, a sign or whatever it is to clarify this matter.
The ultimate fear next to rejection, perhaps is breaking someone's heart. Maybe it's due to that sick feeling that I felt before many times... therefore, I wouldn't want anyone to feel that because of me. I'm more of a Heart-Breaking Kid, as compared to a Heart-Breaker Kid. It's a major difference.
There's a time and place for everything. It's time to do what we should do in life first. Maybe what Turtle said maybe true, to a certain extent... I'm just finding an excuse to stop loving, yet wants to continue to love. I guess, I have more or less killed that feeling of love again and again, each time it rose up. I'm a stubborn fish, I guess.
Yawn... time to rest perhaps when school is over altogether.
To do my best to God, to the country, to other people and to self.
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