Let's learn ves-ism! Haha. That's the latest trend in White Stag Scout Leaders Council now...

Well, what it is about... that question belongs to the Gibbon to answer. Well, the leaders' meeting was kinda relax yet tense at some point of time. Well, if there is no tension or disagreement, things wouldn't change for the better, right? And we will just be experiencing group think and die from it.

While talking to a junior today, I asked him... What does leadership mean to you? He replied in a very modern and honest manner. I do appreciate his comments, as I do stand by it too. I wouldn't comment on his answers however, leadership in Scouting and leadership in military school are two different aspects and perspectives. Why so?

My opinion is that in military school or anything to do with military, there are very rigid procedures and protocols. This includes files and ranks. Where as in Scouting, it's more to brotherhood. Although I understand that it is a uniform group, the distinction from us to the others is the very fact that we treat each other as brothers and sisters, regardless of age or religion or race or language. So why are we treating the boys or girls like soldiers? Due to image? due to respect? due to proper procedure?

Well, screw it. As long as the scouts are happy, so am I. Weird to think about it. I can be super shy and non-communicable in my normal self. However, going to scouting activities with juniors that I barely know, I could really TCS with them. Haha maybe it's a different image.

I pray that tomorrow, none of them will freak out from the huge amount of audience. Seriously, it will be freaking scary for first-timers. They can just froze there and blank out. I've been there and I was really shivering. I have stage fright at times, so pardon me.

Well, my life now... it's not in a mess yet not really in the direction too. I've lost my way somehow, I need HIS guiding hand to bring me across my troubles and to go back the path again. I pray ...

Let's begin some personal msg again.

To Wisdom Keeper, you're really a brother that I never thought I would click with... until very long time ago. Thank you very much for sharing your experience and your thoughts and ideas with me. I appreciate the effort you took to guide me in Scouting and to be a better leader each day. Cheers to you!!

To Wombat and Raging Bat, slow and steady wins the race! (No link!!)

To Cottontail, sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep and rest!

To Bee, don't do this to me... don't leave me alone! I can't live without you! Wahaha so gay!

To Gibbon, Welcome to the District! and thank you for your endless volunteerism as well as enthu-ness in providing for the boys and the leaders

To Ralph, you're reaching there! Your turn is next!! Wahaha

Well, that should be all for the moment.

What's next for me? To end my declaration of love for her or to leave it hanging as it is. It's confusing... I've to decide fast. I wish I understand her and myself better. Who am I again?