Let's just say I broke my previous records of sleeping time in camp. Let's see... on friday, I arrived at camp at 12pm.

Participated in some minor activities as well as had a little time for revision. The leaders had a movie session together and after which, they knocked out practically all over the room. I had to shift out of the totally freezing air-conditioned room to the scout's den to do my revision for my Investment paper at around 1pm on Saturday. So, I studied and revise till around 8am before going home to had a nice cool bath before heading for school.

It was quite bad as I was trying very hard to stay awake in the train to school. Nearly fell down several times and during my last minute ditch to revise and cramp all the nonsense into my "already-loaded-to-the-maximum" brain... I nearly fell a sleep in the library.

Cleared my investment paper and headed back to school to assist in the pioneering projects by taking pictures. By then, it had already passed the 24 hrs mark for not having to sleep. I tried to sleep a few times, however the activities were just keeping me going. It wasn't until 12am on Sunday morning, that it passed the 36 hrs mark. I was really exhausted by then, and sleep whilst watching Iron Man.

On Sunday, when I woke up at 2pm to carry on my activities in camp till now, it had passed the 32 hrs mark. I was totally shag when I entered the examination hall for my treasury paper. I was writing half-way, while drifting in and out of my mind. Even during lunch with Ben, Ming and Mel, I was still drifting in and out. Even during the train trip back home. And finally upon reaching home, I packed my stuff... took out my law paper notes to revise and poof... I went for my bike practical. I was really reluctant to go for it as I do not seem to be physically capable of doing so. However, I just went ahead... I had a tough time trying to concentrate during the practical. In the end, it turned out well... I moved on to the next level. I was very happy about it! Yippie... haha

Anyway, during the whole day, one thing came back to me. The word that came into my mind was "Hunger". It wasn't hunger for food physically, although I do have to admit that I had been eating a lot. Just like lunch at Mr. Prata, I had honey prata, cheese and mushroom prata and a pair of boom prata with chocolate chips. I was like pigging out... woah

OK, back to "Hunger"... what I meant by this, was the hunger to obtain something in life or currently. For an example, I had a sudden urge or hunger to quickly clear my bike practical and obtain my license.

During my secondary school days, I remembered the 'hunger' to strive and be the best. To be the best in the school, to be the top student... thus I focus my energy, time and strength to achieve that goal. Fueled by the 'hunger' to attain more, I balanced my time in scouting and examinations.

However, today, I totally lost touch of that 'hunger' to do something important in life. The 'hunger' to overcome procrastination and laziness. So much had been out-of-touch that I forgot about the 'hunger' to be the best, the 'hunger' to strive to attain higher, the 'hunger' to challenge myself and many other areas in life, such as love relationship, friendship, scouting and others.

I'm ever more determined to do more now... no more procrastination, no more laziness... I want to be a wild beast again, with those instincts and hungriness to strike and defeat.

I'm not crazy nor am I losing it due to the lack of rest and sleep. I'm just wanting to give my best shot here. And at the end of the day, when I looked back in life, I could console myself, saying: "At least I tried my best"...

Congrats to all White Stag Scout and Leaders for the success of the June Training Camp. More can be improved, of cos'. However, I had fun! That's a definite. Next up, DPCC camp as well as SYF training... :)