I'm back from DPCC 2008. Honestly, as I laid on bed this morning, these are some of the things I felt!
1. Why is the 'thing' I'm sleeping on so soft and comfortable?
2. Why is it so quiet and peaceful instead of the buzzing and noise of laughter from the surrounding?
3. Why is there the lack of smell of the environment and the breakfast from elsewhere?
I've missed those 4 days of waking up each morning to see familiar faces and the smell of breakfast from each individual campsite. See faces of smiles yet tiredness...
Well, let's flashback from my point of view from Day 1.
630 hrs - Reached East Spring Secondary school.
It was back to preparing for the left over matters that wasn't able to complete the day before. All of us (Bats, CT, WM and me) as we didn't sleep the night before. It was really a shag moment. However, things started to get busy when units arrive to declare their equipment as well as to shift their equipment.
Well, I've got to admit, I was rather expecting the timing to follow smoothly, however, it didn't due to delays in school's movement. Camp development was slow, and there were lots of injuries going on. There was a major one from Cuon, minor ones from Eagles and other units. It's really kinda scary to see boys and girls not knowing how to handle equipment properly, thus causing themselves or their peers to be injured. Well, thanks to several leaders who kept a bird-eye view of the camp development, we managed to prevent several injuries.
I felt different on this day. It was really slack and there was a serious lack of morale, spirit and discipline. I was actually more angry that participants are not taking it seriously. I know it's pressurizing. However, it's a competition, after all. Without pressure, there will not have breakthroughs in life. Let me ask the participants again (whoever is reading), are you stronger today as compared to the camp? Do you know more about camping? Do you know more people especially your brothers or sisters in your own unit?
Well, all these are your life experiences that you will treasure and remember for life.
Well, Day 1, was really smooth except for some hiccups here and there. I'll continue with Day 2 activities in tomorrow's entry.
Back to my life...
I've met up with Turtle just now to collect her phone, as she left it on the cab. We had a nice time chatting up about stuff and when it comes to relationship. She was nagging to me again. Haha, that's her style I guess.
Well, sixth sense tells me something is wrong with communication and understanding. It's showing as well. So how can a relationship last or even begin if such issue acts as a barrier to it? Right?
Even so, I know she had a few suitors... thus, as brothers come first, I would rather let go. It's sad, stupid and hurtful... even I don't understand the logic. Maybe one day, if it is God-intended, we may get together. At the mean time, I'm just gonna stay back and see her from there.
Just as Mei mei mentioned, "Don't expect so much from her, she may not come for the campfire, so don't feel sad if she doesn't..." Well, I thought about it and during the camp, I felt a strong urge that something will be missing in this camp. Like what Mei mei said, she didn't turn up. Well, I hope she recovers quickly and be healthy.
It's really difficult to trust someone sometimes. However, I don't know... Am I just living in false hope to maintain the friendship? Am I just cheating myself that things may change after all? I pray it will, for her at least.
Well, time to start doing serious matters. Why don't I have a girlfriend now? haha, things to consider in this question...
1. Will she understand my schedule that I'm facing now, such as scouting, working, studying, brotherhood and family?
2. Will there be time for me to give to her, so that she will be happy?
3. Will there be a mutual trust, communication and love between us?
so many factors hindering me from moving forward... what should I do? Forsake my life, to live another? Argh. Life! full of shitty and pending matters to settle first.
Focus and Relax... that maybe the key to it!
(Whose that poster girl!)
1. Why is the 'thing' I'm sleeping on so soft and comfortable?
2. Why is it so quiet and peaceful instead of the buzzing and noise of laughter from the surrounding?
3. Why is there the lack of smell of the environment and the breakfast from elsewhere?
I've missed those 4 days of waking up each morning to see familiar faces and the smell of breakfast from each individual campsite. See faces of smiles yet tiredness...
Well, let's flashback from my point of view from Day 1.
630 hrs - Reached East Spring Secondary school.
It was back to preparing for the left over matters that wasn't able to complete the day before. All of us (Bats, CT, WM and me) as we didn't sleep the night before. It was really a shag moment. However, things started to get busy when units arrive to declare their equipment as well as to shift their equipment.
Well, I've got to admit, I was rather expecting the timing to follow smoothly, however, it didn't due to delays in school's movement. Camp development was slow, and there were lots of injuries going on. There was a major one from Cuon, minor ones from Eagles and other units. It's really kinda scary to see boys and girls not knowing how to handle equipment properly, thus causing themselves or their peers to be injured. Well, thanks to several leaders who kept a bird-eye view of the camp development, we managed to prevent several injuries.
I felt different on this day. It was really slack and there was a serious lack of morale, spirit and discipline. I was actually more angry that participants are not taking it seriously. I know it's pressurizing. However, it's a competition, after all. Without pressure, there will not have breakthroughs in life. Let me ask the participants again (whoever is reading), are you stronger today as compared to the camp? Do you know more about camping? Do you know more people especially your brothers or sisters in your own unit?
Well, all these are your life experiences that you will treasure and remember for life.
Well, Day 1, was really smooth except for some hiccups here and there. I'll continue with Day 2 activities in tomorrow's entry.
Back to my life...
I've met up with Turtle just now to collect her phone, as she left it on the cab. We had a nice time chatting up about stuff and when it comes to relationship. She was nagging to me again. Haha, that's her style I guess.
Well, sixth sense tells me something is wrong with communication and understanding. It's showing as well. So how can a relationship last or even begin if such issue acts as a barrier to it? Right?
Even so, I know she had a few suitors... thus, as brothers come first, I would rather let go. It's sad, stupid and hurtful... even I don't understand the logic. Maybe one day, if it is God-intended, we may get together. At the mean time, I'm just gonna stay back and see her from there.
Just as Mei mei mentioned, "Don't expect so much from her, she may not come for the campfire, so don't feel sad if she doesn't..." Well, I thought about it and during the camp, I felt a strong urge that something will be missing in this camp. Like what Mei mei said, she didn't turn up. Well, I hope she recovers quickly and be healthy.
It's really difficult to trust someone sometimes. However, I don't know... Am I just living in false hope to maintain the friendship? Am I just cheating myself that things may change after all? I pray it will, for her at least.
Well, time to start doing serious matters. Why don't I have a girlfriend now? haha, things to consider in this question...
1. Will she understand my schedule that I'm facing now, such as scouting, working, studying, brotherhood and family?
2. Will there be time for me to give to her, so that she will be happy?
3. Will there be a mutual trust, communication and love between us?
so many factors hindering me from moving forward... what should I do? Forsake my life, to live another? Argh. Life! full of shitty and pending matters to settle first.
Focus and Relax... that maybe the key to it!
(Whose that poster girl!)
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