Time flies real fast. This is definitely the end of fun time for most people, and it's time to go back to reality, such as working, studying for examinations, slogging somewhere somehow. Well, thank you for making my day to those who did.

Another movie, besides Coyote Ugly, that I love to watch is The Replacement. It's about a group of Ex-footballers (not soccer), being called back to form a team as replacement. Their main goal is to play like there is no tomorrow and win the match. Well, I do love such shows that shows teamwork through fun activity. It just reminds me of how scouting should be like.

Well, one word that I learnt in that movie, is Quicksand. Well, basically, the meaning behind "Quicksand" is a situation whereby one event goes wrong, and the next goes wrong as well, and the next and the next. No matter how hard you try to fight it out, it still goes wrong. And you start to sink deeper and deeper and finally you stopped breathing. Well, I have to say, I do feel that I face such situation daily.

Call me a crowd or a hermit. I do not take much risk although my Sista once commented that I am a reckless boy that doesn't care about the risk and consequences when doing things. I hope to be that boy again. There is one life that I am living only. I got to live it to it's greatest satisfaction. However, the life that I am living now is just to do 'right'. But to me, it just feels wrong, totally wrong.

Surely, my friends can see me in a very confused state of mind at the moment. I don't know what to do with my life. I have been just living each day as it pass and just waiting for what God intents. I fear that my actions, words and thoughts will cause mistakes that I do not bear to see. I fear that these mistakes will affect other people. I fear that these mistakes will haunt me forever. I can see that others do feel the same... some others ...

Well, to many whom I neglected in the past, I am sorry. To those who I will neglect in the future, I am sorry too. To those who are hurt by my words, actions and thoughts, I am sorry. To those who continually suffer from my nonsense, I am glad you didn't die from it yet.

I'm gonna change. I''m gonna be a better person. I'm gonna be more daring. I'm gonna take risks. I'm gonna be that man with the boy in me. I'm gonna be that young Marlin again. Screw those who disrespect me. Screw those who hate me. Screw those who doesn't listen to me.

I can be your friend and brother. However, I can be your enemy too. Choose and decide quick. Before I will disappear in your life instead.