A wake is a solemn event that people should respect. Well, I had just attended a wake of a relative just a few hours ago. It was heart-breaking to see people crying and mourning about the passing of their love one. I have to agree that the pain will be there for a long long time, maybe till you pass on too.

This will be the 13th year to pass, and the events of her passing is still etched clearly on my mind. It never left and will always continue to remind me to treasure families and friends as much as possible in every little way.

I am not the sort to accompany families or friends to a great extent or show my love through physical or tangible means. I just do it mentally and through intangible means. I know it should silly, but that's how I would rather show that I care and remember you.

Well, to lighten the mood. The following names are of no meaning to anyone but just a series of interesting thoughts for desperate measures to people that lacks of a relationship I guess. Here it goes ...

For those who wants to know about my long-time girlfriend, her name is Scou Ting. Well, she has been with me since I entered Secondary school. A loyal, fun, loving and sometimes can be irresistible too.

However, I want to contact back to this girl that I know, whose name is Wan Ting. She is always cheerful and smiley... never fail to show her sunshine smile to others. But she seems lost now...

The most stressful relationship I have now is with Schoo Ling. She's very demanding and hard to handle. Imagine seeing her everyday and listening to her orders on the list of endless assignments that I got to complete for her... With her, my life just shortens each day.

The most reliable and my own personal relations girlfriend is Blog Ging. Well, now I am with her right now. I can tell her almost nothing to let others know about me. But she knows, she has been keeping me connected to my friends. Love her so much.

Well, I got to say that sometimes what Wolf said was correct. When a man says that he is going to do something, he must try his best to do it. It's like honoring his word. Even the simplest thing counts! Missy once told me about NATO ... I was thinking isn't NATO an organisation. She was saying "nope, NATO means NO ACTION, TALK ONLY". It fits the meaning to just shooting words and suggestions one after another, however when the time comes ... nothing tangible or physical is done.

All great ideas needs a first step of doing something to achieve the results. If you don't take the first step, the ideas will just be a dream that never comes true.

I've got to say, my priorities in life now is neither here nor there. I want things, yet withhold my thoughts. Maybe I am just too lazy or procrastinating around too long ...

I want to have a taste of balancing my social life, scouting life, work life, school life, family life and personal life.

I want to have a filled-pack and entertaining day to day life.

I want to be there as much as possible for my friends, buddy, brothers and sisters and family.

I know that my current schedule now, will definitely kill me someday. I rather lead a happy and fulfilling short life, then to endure a long life that has no meaning to me. This is the same for relationship, I seek a fulfilling, loving and happy relationship that when all else fails in the relationship, both of us will continue to protect and love each other. The time is not the factor, the value of the relationship is.

Emo-ing with the thumb-sucking move again!!