Several things came up to me today. Well, I can't exactly say it is very good nor bad.
Well, generally, those who reads my blog... I can understand a hard time trying to understand what I am trying to say or mean. However, just a word of cautious... there is always an underlying meaning to some sentences, depending on how you interpret it. Let's just say, it's a habit of mine... to not explain fully. It makes you think, if you want to. So, if you think it is kinda offensive sort of remark, maybe read a few more times to see the connection or maybe think of questions like, if it's not you, then its me or vice versa.
Anyway, I've been talking about being yourself and stuff. I just realise, most people are facing identity crisis. What do I mean? Well, it's like asking yourselves questions such as, "Who are I really?", "What is in me?" or "Is this who I really am?". Those kind of question that makes you think of the actions you took and the words that you said, in the past. Well, I do face such questions frequently, however most of the times, it is just thoughts to keep me moving to be a better person each day.
After an outing with Crab and his friends, as well as relentlessly trying to improve my communication with other people, I got to change the way I talk and response. I got to admit that when it comes to being alone with most people, I would keep very quiet and do my own stuff. It's not that I don't like that person or what, however, it's me trying to think of how to talk. Even, juniors as well as some peers will find me weird if I talked a lot suddenly. Man, I got to break away from that image they had, when they first met me. What image you may think? Feedback so far are that, he is cold, fierce-looking, very quiet, cool (as in quiet coolness...) and stuff that makes people think that I am trying to act cool? Haha I don't know
So yeap, I need to brush up on that part of life, or else there wouldn't be any dates or outings. It sucks to think that if I go out with this girl, how am I going to communicate with her? Talking about work? about scouts? about what? Then, finally, I would convince myself that I can't go out with her or whoever that is, or else it would be a boring outing.
Anyway, not trying to be Aunty Anne or whatever you call to answer problems that people faced. However to Low, I don't believe in the phrase of "if old friends don't go, how can new friends come?". What I believe in is that old friends are meant to be treasured and remembered, while new friends would be friends that will eventually become old friends finally.
To Stephy Summerburn, I know I suck at love relationship, however, just don't let such small matters affect your life. It's not worth it, after all, you may not know whether it's a crush, puppy love or true love. Do what you do best and just enjoy your life.
Well, so much things to do, but there is a limit too. I, sometimes wonder if my existence makes other people's lives more free or more as a burden. It's not suicidal thoughts, as I condone suicide as a coward act. But more like, what is my purpose and my existence for? What talent has God given me to show HIS glory? I pray that I will find out someday soon, so that I can stop walking aimlessly in life.
Well, generally, those who reads my blog... I can understand a hard time trying to understand what I am trying to say or mean. However, just a word of cautious... there is always an underlying meaning to some sentences, depending on how you interpret it. Let's just say, it's a habit of mine... to not explain fully. It makes you think, if you want to. So, if you think it is kinda offensive sort of remark, maybe read a few more times to see the connection or maybe think of questions like, if it's not you, then its me or vice versa.
Anyway, I've been talking about being yourself and stuff. I just realise, most people are facing identity crisis. What do I mean? Well, it's like asking yourselves questions such as, "Who are I really?", "What is in me?" or "Is this who I really am?". Those kind of question that makes you think of the actions you took and the words that you said, in the past. Well, I do face such questions frequently, however most of the times, it is just thoughts to keep me moving to be a better person each day.
After an outing with Crab and his friends, as well as relentlessly trying to improve my communication with other people, I got to change the way I talk and response. I got to admit that when it comes to being alone with most people, I would keep very quiet and do my own stuff. It's not that I don't like that person or what, however, it's me trying to think of how to talk. Even, juniors as well as some peers will find me weird if I talked a lot suddenly. Man, I got to break away from that image they had, when they first met me. What image you may think? Feedback so far are that, he is cold, fierce-looking, very quiet, cool (as in quiet coolness...) and stuff that makes people think that I am trying to act cool? Haha I don't know
So yeap, I need to brush up on that part of life, or else there wouldn't be any dates or outings. It sucks to think that if I go out with this girl, how am I going to communicate with her? Talking about work? about scouts? about what? Then, finally, I would convince myself that I can't go out with her or whoever that is, or else it would be a boring outing.
Anyway, not trying to be Aunty Anne or whatever you call to answer problems that people faced. However to Low, I don't believe in the phrase of "if old friends don't go, how can new friends come?". What I believe in is that old friends are meant to be treasured and remembered, while new friends would be friends that will eventually become old friends finally.
To Stephy Summerburn, I know I suck at love relationship, however, just don't let such small matters affect your life. It's not worth it, after all, you may not know whether it's a crush, puppy love or true love. Do what you do best and just enjoy your life.
Well, so much things to do, but there is a limit too. I, sometimes wonder if my existence makes other people's lives more free or more as a burden. It's not suicidal thoughts, as I condone suicide as a coward act. But more like, what is my purpose and my existence for? What talent has God given me to show HIS glory? I pray that I will find out someday soon, so that I can stop walking aimlessly in life.
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