20 August 2006

Inspriational: End of a broken dream

As Lin woke up this very morning, he was feeling a hangover due to the excessive drinking and smoking he had the night before. He couldn't really remembered what had happened the night before. As he sat on his king-sized bed and wondered, reality started to sink in slowly as he recalled about a dream of happiness, love and hope that was broken by a very special person in his life.
Tears started to roll down his rosy cheeks as he thought about his girl. His first ever girl that he felt in love with for a very long time. He felt sick in the stomach, as though someone had punched him, to think about her again.
He wondered if what the girl had done was right in the first place? His imagination started to run wild again. He felt that recently he had been having too much wild imagination of his girl going out with another guy from her 'study group'. Maybe it is true, but maybe not. But who cares now anyway !! Life goes on ...
As he got off this bed, he walked listlessly towards the toilet to freshen up for the day ahead.
As days turn to weeks, he felt that no matter what he do, he would ever be able to turn the clock around again to save that relationship. He felt that he had made many mistakes in the past. He should have spend much more time with the girl. He should make the girl happy instead of crying for minor problems. He should had just give his full attention to the girl instead of other things. He should have known all these and take corrective action against it, but he chose to let it go instead. He thought that all these were not nesscary as he believe that the girl is independent and different from those attention-seeking type.
But all these things are too late to regret ... and moreover, he felt that whatever decisions he had made should not be regrettable at all. Indeed, it was an end of a dream that was broken and shattered. A beautiful dream that turn into a nightmare. And he wondered how long will he take to get out of this meaningless nightmare ...

PS: I am going to let it go right now ...

2 Comments:

Blogger ^dumbdumb :)) said...

hey thou i duno wats wrg with this entry and that drawing but well all these can wait till aft poa paper ba. so mug hard. put them aside. dun think too much. wanna share anything i am always around! take care.

shirin

01:19  
Blogger becca said...

**becca**
erm... cheer up.. dun think too much..
i've been thru this sure u too
happy to be in love but hard to get out of it
things are unpredictable..
maybe u had think too much..
maybe u're right..
watever it is, a fact is a fact.. no one can change it.. sad but reality has it..
u still ahve frens like mi! =)

00:09  

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